depression poems

08

What if I told you
about my problems?
What if I told you
that I'm not that girl you think I am?
What if I told you
that my smiles aren't real anymore?
What if I told you
that you were right when you said that I cut myself or
that I don't eat enough?
What if I told you
how much I weight and
that I still have to lose weight?
What if I told you
about this demon in my head?
What if I told you
that I cry myself to sleep nearly every night?
What if I told you
that I'm one of those 'emo bitches'
like you use to call them?
What if I told you
how much I hate myself?
What if I told you
about all those things I hate
about myself?
What if I told you
about my fears and
that I can't even think about
the future bc I'm so scared of it?
What if I told you
that the only way to get out of this
is suicide?
What if I told you
that my biggest wish is to die?
Would you still like me?
Would you still wanna be my friend?
I wonder what it would be like
if you knew those secrets I hide deep inside.

- inspired by What if I told you
  (Jason Walker)