It's far too dark

Power and control

I hear my parents downstairs. They're fighting again.
Dad's been out for too long and Mum's angry again.
I don't think she really cares where he has been this time. I think she just got tired of playing the role of the patience wife.

Power and control

And I can understand her, really.
Or at least I'm trying to.

I'm gonna make you fall

But dad's never been patient. He's gonna get tired sooner than her. I just know that. Then he's gonna leave us for good.

I fear that day.

Women and men we are the same

No one ever said it was my fault mum and dad fought that much.

But will always be a game

But no one ever cared about how I felt anyways

I don't feel guilty about it. Because I didn't do anything wrong. I loved my parents equally. I always tried to.

We give but take a little more

But mum was pushing too much. If dad left, I'm never going to forgive her.

We don't stop until we get more

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I'm sitting with Jerry in the parking lot.

He said he loved me, so I hung out with him. He's nice, not really that firm though.

I do what I want, and he doesn't stop me because he's afraid to lose me or something, I think.

I light another cigarette.
Jerry says something about ruining my health, I just ignore him. Again.
My mum wouldn't worry about him that much if she knew how much of a wimp he could be sometimes.

I described my boyfriend using all the adjectives she hated the most.
In the end, his description looked vaguely similar to my father. Not very realistic.

Above all, I stayed with him because Jerry did the one thing no one ever promised me. He told me he would never leave me.

Sure, he told other things I hated being reminded of, for example that my mother had no fault if Rick (my mum refused to call him 'your father' again) had left, and that I should have stopped giving my mother worries.

My mother would like him, differently from my father. He would probably
dislike and ignore him.
Maybe I'm going to introduce him to my mother.

At least she would have stopped worrying. In the end, I am ok, ain't I?

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I really wanna continue the saving-Rick concept but I would have felt bad not dedicating anything to Beth, her character has so much potential
Also I wanted to give a little more dignity to Jerry and Beth's mother characters, give them a little love💕