Love Is Love (Discontinued)

Chapter 4 - A Little Relaxation

(Ashley's POV)

My eyes gently fluttered open as I woke from my (luxurious) nap. I started to feel a little cold, like I was naked.

That is, until I sat up and looked down, only to see that I WAS naked. My eyes became wide until I remembered what happened.

Martti and I had sex.

'Did we have sex?' I mentally asked myself, 'No. We couldn't have. Why would she have sex with someone like me?!' My body begin to tremble, 'She... I... I'm not even worth being her girlfriend!! This isn't real!! This can't be real!! This is all too good to be real!!' Tears started escaping my eyes, 'You're just some ugly, stupid, schizophrenic BITCH!!!' I started whimpering, 'YOU STUPID BITCH!! WHY DON'T YOU JUST KILL YOURSELF ALREADY!?!? NOBODY LIKES YOU!!' I hugged myself to calm down, to stop the thoughts.

'WHY DON'T YOU JUST DO EVERYONE AND YOURSELF A FAVOR AND JUST DIE!? HUH!? MARTTI DOESN'T LOVE YOU LIKE YOU WANT HER TO!!!'

"Y-y-yes sh-she does..."

'Really? You really think that?'

"Y-yes..."

'THEN YOU'RE A FUCKING IDIOT!!!' the voice bellowed, 'THERE JUST LIES!!! LIES, LIES, LIES, LLLIIIIEEEESSS!!! YOU'RE WHOLE LIFE IS JUST ONE BIG FUCKING LIE!!! THIS ISN'T REAL!! NONE OF IT'S REAL!!

"It... it... it... it i-isn't?..."

'NO!! IT'S ALL BULLSHIT!! Let me ask you something. Do you, do you honestly think Martti loves you?'

"Y-yes-"

'WRONG!!! SHE DOESN'T LOVE YOU!!! And you wanna know why?'

"W-why?..."

'Because you're a weird, lonely, stupid, little BITCH! She's gonna leave you, Ashley! Just like your father did! She LIED to you! She only wants for your body! Heh, that's all anyone's gonna want you for!'

W-was the voices right? Does Martti really love me? Does she really only want me for my body? Was this all just an hallucination? Have I've been hallucinating this whole time? "Good afternoon, baby." came Martti's voice, as she was just waking. I snapped my heads towards her with tears freely flowing down my face, "Whoa, baby. What's wrong!" she asked in concern as she sat up next to me. I just looked at her before asking her one question.

"...Was it real?..."

"Was what real? Us having sex?" Martti asked in confusion.

That's when I lost it.

"YES!!! PLEASE tell me is was real!! Please tell me everything that happened between us was real!! Tell me that us having sex was real!! Please Martti, tell me that it was real and not just me hallucinating!! Please tell me that you're real, that we've really met, that we kissed, that we had sex, that you love me!! Please, tell me it was real. For the LOVE of GOD, tell me IT WAS REAL!!!" I exclaimed, crying uncontrollably as Martti stared at me in fear, shock, confusion and worry. But quickly brought me into a hug, planting her lips firmly on mine as I calmed down and did my best to try and return the kiss. Martti slowly pulled away from the kiss and looked me directly in my eyes as she wiped the tears away, "It was real," she started, "It was real, baby. Everything we did, everything that happened," Martti assured as her voice was breaking, "It was real, baby. It really was," tears started sliding down her face, "W-we did it all. W-we really d-did meet, w-we really did kiss, w-we really did h-have sex, and I do love you, baby. I love you..." Martti said as she started to lightly sob, hugging me even tighter as I hugged her just as tight, "I love you, too..." I said as I started to sob along with her.