Cold Winter Love (wattys 2017)

(softmore year) chapter 20

It's been nearly a year since Angela spoke to Jonathan or thought about talking to him. Angela was going thru very hard times. She was depressed all the time. And scared. She locked herself in her room most days. After freshman year it got much worse. Angela got beat up at school a lot. She started to harm herself.

     Angela refused to get out of bed. She was bruised and hurt from the ay before. Yesterday was the first day of softmore year. Not only was Angela bullied as usual but she was beat up. To top it all off she had to do it all again today.
      Angela finally pulled herself out of bed brushed her now back hair. And change into darker cloths. It was fall and all Angela wanted to do was get out of highschool forever. There was no change she could drop out he parents wouldn't let her.  Since highschool started her got more strict with Angela. She had no friends she didn't know why her parents cared. She dyed her hair cuz she was one with blond. Being herself didn't feel right anymore. The old Angela was happy when she was 8 and 9 but after that her life plummeted down a hole.
      She put in her black shoes and put her hair to the right side making it fall in her face. She grabbed her bag and left for school.  As she arrived at the door she was listening to music on her phone. Headphones blasting she didn't hear anyone. A guy walked up to her and she avoided him going around and going to class. She only felt safe in class anymore. She rushed to class as fast as she could. The teacher wasn't in there, but she was safe none the less.
       Angela was in her class. She was alone like normal. This was her life now. Being alone. It was quiet and dark. Someone walked in and her head was on the table it wasn't the teacher she knew. It was a girl. One of the populars she already knew she was gonna get hit. So she braced herself. "Do your worse, I have nothing left anyway" Angela said and a sadl solum voice. As the girl stood there. She walked closer "Angela, I'm not here to hurt you. Everyone else may want to but I'm not like that. I've seen how depressed you are I've seen your arms Angela. You need someone" the girl sounded genuine unlike the others. "I don't need anyone I don't want anyone I don't need anything. Just hit me beat me or leave me alone. I'm worthless here " Angela snapped at the girl. She didn't care what she said. Only wanted to be alone and away from people that hate her.
     The girl left and Angela was left in silence. Her teachers knew she didn't wanna go to class. Angela left and hid in the gym. As she was in the gym she got a call from an unknown number. She answered it anyway. "Hello?" She asked quietly and sadly. There wasn't anyone at the other end. "If this was to mess with me leave me alone I get enough of it a day at school leave me the hell alone. And stop calling me this number has called me four times. Leave me alone." She was about to hand up when she Hurd a voice. "Stop" it was deep and sad, solum dark, and depressed. "Who are you?" Angela asked with curiosity. "How could you forget me already? I know I haven't called or texted you in a year but I didn't expect that." The voice didn't sound familiar. "I'm sorry but your voice isn't familiar to me and your number was unknown. I'm sorry but if I knew you. I don't wanna talk. I'd rather sulk in the dark." Angela sighed "I lost my best friend and I won't get him back." Angela whent quiet. "Angela, promise me you won't hang up I need to talk to you. I....I'm....Jonathan." Angela paused before she said anything. "J.... jona..... Jonathan.... why did.....why did you call me....I'm a nobody" Angela wasn't herself Jonathan knew this.
     "Angela, can you listen to me. Please. I couldn't talk to you for a year cuz....I was having
Troubles." Angela didnt understand what he ment by problems. She was having life problems. "I have been having problems. Troubles. Pain. Everything you can list." Jonathan spoke up quickly "Angela hey shush and listen for a minute please. I miss you. I said touch led cuz....I tried killing myself wothout you. And don't say anything. I couldn't face you after I did it  I didn't want to make you feel bad." Jonathan explained himself to her. "I....I attempted more time then I remember. Or care to count. My parents got strict with me  even tho I didn't do anything. I understand they don't want me to attempt again. When they don't even care to talk to me anymore. Nobody does "
      they talked all thru school. Hiding from everyone. They where a lot more alike then they thought. They thought the same way. Jonathan said that if he doesn't  talk to her till the next year than to not forget him. Knowing things that happen. She might forget again.
     Angela went on with her softmire year beinf bullied. Hurt and depressed. Hoping her life would get better.