❗WARNING: SEXUAL and MATURE CONTENT❗️
Book 3 to My Boo💋
From being a wild rebellious teenager, to hoe'n around with whomever catches her eye all while suffering from a severe bipolar disorder-this is just a fraction of the life Brandi Lorraine Ford...
Remember that day, specifically on the day I left to go to the army but when I was home with Kenya & Kya?
Okay. Now remember when I said "I haven't even been chilling with Brandi as much now, I guess me and her growing up on different paths.
But that don't mean anything, I still love her and yeah I'm still crushing. That girl will always have a place in my heart..."
Let's just say...it's more to that story than I explained. I only said those things because...I......I- don't even know. Maybe thats how I wanted it to be.
We all know how much I care for Brandi...and how I recently spilled the beans about liking her, yes. And she accepted it. But what if I told you....that day I left....didn't go exactly like how I mentioned. I think because maybe....I wanted the stuff I said to truly happen, referring to when I took Brandi around the corner.
Yeah we flirted but....she quickly stopped me within its first seconds.
I then walk towards Brandi, not even saying anything but just rushing into hug her tightly, feeling her cry a little on my chest.
"Why you crying cry baby?" I tease, bending down to her.
She gives me a serious look, looking around back at Kenya and Jay."You mind if we talk for a sec"
"Uh okay" I follow her around the corner where she leans up against the wall.
"Why do you calling me that....and in front of your cousin and baby mama?" she asked.
I sigh. "I'm sorry okay...you know how--"
"Nya. You've gotten way to comfortable with this whole....'us' situation, to the point where it just slips from our your tongue"
"Okay yo...damn. Is it that bad?"
She looks down. "D look,....I know how you feel about me and how much I mean to you. But I feel like you act like our previous conversation never happened and it's starting to be just you being aggressive now. And don't ever think that I don't love you or care about you....because I do. But not in the way you do for me. I just don't boo and I hope you can understand that someday. Your my best friend....my sister....and I don't wanna lose that, you know. I don't know what I'd do if I didn't have you talk to...........I'd probably be dead too" a tear falls down from her eye.
I quickly wipe it away any pull her into a hug, hearing her cry on my chest.
"I'm so sorry it gotta be like that Ny and I know I probably hurt you by what I'm saying. But still I--" she cries to me before I put my finger over her lips.
"It's alright okay" I let a tear go myself. "But I just hope who ever you meet later on makes you happy. That's all I want....is for you to be happy okay. Now I gotta go...so just pray for me I guess. Its not like me being her makes a difference anyways" I look down, stepping away from her.
"Don't say that" she wipes her face.
"Goodbye Brandi" I look at her one last time, before going back to kiss Kya before the bus arrives.
And so yeah....that's what really happened that day. A few minutes later, the bus came and I got aboard, sitting down next to a window broken hearted.💔
This was the second time, she's rejected me. The other time was just a week before, when she mentioned our previous conversation.
*A week before the leave*
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"Why are you smiling at me like that" she asked me, blushing and smiling herself.
"You just make me smile, you know"
"I know. But I think it's time we talk about that okay"
"Okay. Go ahead"......
Long story short...she said the same thing. "We can't be together...and I don't wanna lose our friendship". Which was understandable....but it's still hard when you love that other person.
And even after breaking my heart that day by the let down....and when she and another boy took pictures kissing just a few hours after, even when she called me up to talk about her fucking sex life 5 days later...., when her and that boy Keith we're in a relationship, to when she ain't answer me because she was out having fun with him...., when I saw them two again on Valentine's day happy and in love..., to when she told me about losing her virginity....
I still cared. I still cried. I still loved. I still supported her. And I know not everyone is going to like you back but.....just what about me....😢😳
And my feelings. And my broken heart....and my cries at night.
I guess it's irrelevant because I'm the same gender....but not really. Just because I look like a girl on the outside, that don't mean I can't love you the same like a man😳
When all they ever do is fuck you over and break your heart. You know how hard that is, to love someone who you can't be with but they always end up hurt by other people.
She doesn't know how much I'm......caught up in her. I would do anything to make her happy. Even to the point where I 'got over' my feelings for her when I left.....just because I wanna see her happy.
Happy with a no good as nigga who's not half the man I am. But I love this girl right. And if that makes her happy...💔
I'll just go cry alone.
Nya in the media💔😒 This is closure on why Nya and Brandi are kind of rocky. And this was just Nya's true feelings...
She hides her feelings so much from Brandi, just to see her happy go lucky. But when Brandi talks about people she likes or....about her having sex. How you really think Nya feels?
It kills her..... Why would you wanna see your crush happy with someone else...., making love to someone else...
