In this story is a girl named Elizabeth she is confesing her biggest regrets.
My biggest regret is not having guts to say a simple "I'm sorry please take me back."
I left him I didn't want to hurt him through, my anger this constant thing burning inside me, a rage that will never end, my past what mistakes I've made, or my depressing self just me going into depressing topics and just rambling on about my pain.
The thought of hurting him is ground breaking, tear inducing pain and agony I wanted him free from me, I want him happy, i want him to have an amazing life, but I want him as well, I can't have him though, I can't hurt him again it's like hitting someone you LOVE more than anything with a car it's even more painful than killing them because they still have to know what you did to them it's just there in their mind.
He made me happier then anyone else we laughed and talked and cuddled and so much more, he was my world, my light, my hope, he saved me, he was my guardian angel and I pushed him away like the fool I was, like the fool I am.
I didn't want to hurt him so I left him and the entire time I was shaking and crying. I was shaking as a way of my body saying "Don't do it you know it's the wrong choice, the wrong thing." I hated that feeling that shaking, knowing I was doing something wrong, that shaking was intense for being a small little thing but yet I still typed this words the things I can't take back.
Oh how he tried to convince me to stay with him but every time I pushed away. Why, why did I do this! I love him more than anything but I couldn't say the words "Take me back, I'm sorry, please I love you too much." Oh god why couldn't I say those words. I know he loves me but I'm scared still, will he reject me because of what I did, will he be mad because of what I put him through, will anything be the same...
