You see the best in people and try to give your best.You smile like a fool, start conversations ,take risks but let me tell you :it's like jumping into cold water .You get lost in a huge sea of people ,all wanting the same thing 'refreshment' . People like you are the waves crashing against the others. Getting hurt and then melting into them .They drown you. They keep up that strong image of the see no matter what. Not even bothering to check if you're even alive. Then again, what would someone watching that chaotic picture see? Just some salty water crashing against itself. He doesn't notice the efforts. He doesn't pay attention to small details. He can not see what happens to us. The fighters... We never survive .We can't even change the water's color ,smell ,shape or taste. The only tiny change we make is in our selves: we destroy ourselves...
