My Saviour (Andy Biersack)

Chapter 1: memories

** AVERYS POV** Beep.beep.beep.beep

My eyes gently oped to the deafening roar from my alarm clock. I sighed. Today wasn't no ordinary day for me. I look at the ceiling and smiled, "Happy Birthday Jonathan", I said.

** flashback**

I jammed to my radio blasting. Oh how much I love The Beatles. Then I heard a pound at my door. Please don't be my step dad. I opened the door to see my mom crying her eyes out. I got a bad feeling about this. "A-Avery?", she stuttered trying to hold back tears. "Yea?", I replied. "Your brother Jonathan, h-he killed himself!", my mother pleaded.

"W-what?! No he didn't you're kidding mom stop it this isn't funny", I yelled. "Come with me", she commanded trying to hold back tears. I followed her into his room what seemed like eternity but his room is only down the hall. As I entered his room I saw him lying limp on his bed. I've never seen him look so lifeless yet so happy but I refused to believe he was gone. "M-Mom look he's just sleeping", I exclaimed. Then I glanced at his neck it had rope marks and nail dents. He hung himself. I instantly fell to the ground sobbing. I needed him. I love him. "M-Mom he can't be dead if he's dead I have to g-go with h-him", I cried! I felt a tap on my shoulder "this is for you, " my mom whispered. I grabbed the note and ran to my room I slammed my door and locked it. I needed to get away. I collapsed on my bed and gently opened the note. It read:

Dear Avery,

I'm so sorry things turned out like this, the bullies and the beating were to much for me. They got what they wanted. They wanted me dead, but I don't want to see you up here for a very long time okay? I want you to live your life and make it great. I love you so much. I know I promised I'd never leave but I had to. I'm sorry. Remember you're worth it, remember me please and remember all the good times we shared. Never give in my love.

Love Jonathan.

I brought my knees up to my chest and cried. Everything I loved, I lost. I lost my brother, my other half, my everything. Out of the corner of my eye, I saw something. And the air was tense and peace swept over me. I suddenly ran to my dresser and found what I saw. My pencil sharpener. I slammed it on the hard floor and it broke. I took a bobby pin and unscrewed the bolts holding the razors back. The razors fell into my palms. The cold metal felt.. Beyond perfect. I rolled up my sleeve. I knew what I had to do. "I'm sorry Jonathan", I whispered.

** end of flashback **

I snapped back into reality and glanced at my clock. 5 minutes had passed. Shit I got to get ready. As I got out of my bed it seemed like the hardest thing to do, "reunited soon my love", I said looking at my bed. I sighed hopping into the shower. I began to relax as the warm water crashed on my skin my mind was at ease. This could last forever but I had school. -.-. As I hopped out of the shower the cold air instantly hit me and I ran to get my towel on. I plugged in my straightener and blowdryer and began to dry my hair. After it was dry I started to straighten my hair and I teased my layers. After I completed my hair I put on a thick layer of eyeliner with a wing and mascara ^.^. I checked the time. 6:45. I rushed into my closet and pulled out a BOTDF sweater with black skinnys and doc martens. I looked at myself in the mirror. I disliked what I saw looking back at me. "Fat" "ugly" "kill yourself" painful words rushed through my head. I looked away and grabbed my phone and rushed downstairs to find my mom passes out on the couch. Again. I rolled my eyes and sighed. I heard my stomach rumble as I looked in the direction of the kitchen. My thoughts started buzzing again "no don't do it" "fatass" I decided to skip breakfast. Suddenly I heard a slam. Shit Richard is up! "AVERY", he yelled angrily. I grabbed my bookbag and rushed out of the house and ran down the street. I got to my bus stop I knew I'd be safe there. I had a few minutes before the bus a arrived so I decided to dedicate these few minutes to music. I put my phone on shuffle and music started playing. The morticians daughter by black veil brides. I loved this song. I loved black veil brides. I was snapped out of my thoughts by a loud how