Found Love In You (completed)

chapter 25

I may have been over dramatic with the whole thing the other but hey it's not my fault.I am going through a lot right now and the freaking lease he could do is help me out since he all but had the pleasure of fucking screwing me till I got pregnant.

I am not complaining about being pregnant.Far from it.It's just I am tired of freaking being second when it comes to Seth's attention,or needing Seth.

I love him with all my heart and the fact we are suppose to get married really shows it.

Or the fact that I am trying my damnedest to leave him alone and just deal with everything that I have to by myself.From doctor appointments to late night cravings and other pregnancy things.

I am even taking care of our wedding planing which is going to be a small simple wedding not one I have pictured since I was a little girl.I figured the quicker We wedded the faster Seth would be happy to get back to work.I didn't even plan or schedule a honeymoon.I am so close to saying fuck it and just go to the justice of the peace and get it done faster.

"Adylnn lets talk"

"Don't you have work to do,or meetings to go to?"

"No I had Lonnie clear my week"

"what is there to talk about?"

"Us"

"funny us don't matter any more"

"that is not true"

"isn't it?"

"No"

"then for the past months what has been going on with us?"

"Nothing"

"exactly."

"Look I am trying to work as much as I can so when we get married we can have a honeymoon with no interruptions from anything work related"

"What honeymoon.you have been so caught up in work,that I didn't even plan one"

"No but I did.and that is why I am working more then anything else.I hate that it means less time with you. but it will be worth it when it's all done"

I just went silent not saying or making a sound.I mean I wanted to bite his head off and throw it but I have to stay calm for my baby's sake.

"Well I am not the only one you have been ignoring.unless you forgot that you are to soon be a dad.I mean you have never went to the doctors appointment with me so I might as well be living alone and having this beautiful human on my own."

"I am sorry I never attended a doctors appointment or ultrasound.But I am working for us"

"no your not.your doing it for yourself.so you know what else you can do your self-"

"Don't say it.please don't say it"

"say what that I am tried of being second to your work,that I am so tired of pleasuring my self because my suppose to be fiance cares more about his work then helping me when he was all to happy and willing to get me pregnant,yet he don't want to be happy and willing to help me when I deal with stuff like raging hormones,or cravings,or mood swings,and other pregnancy things."

I took a deep breath and relaxed some before going again.

"I am tired of tell people that your working instead of being by my side to see our baby,or get check ups on me and our baby to make sure that we are fine.Which It was a close call on losing my baby"

he looked at me confused

"Yea I almost lost our baby.not like u would have even noticed if I miscarried or not.your head is focused on work.so let it stay focused on work and I will focus on our baby."

he just stood there speechless so I walked passed him and went to relax in a much need bath.