Friends ~a Jacob sartorius fanfic~

15|| how have you been?

A month later
Gabbys pov
I sat in bed just replaying that whole day in my head. Everything just seemed to turn on me and it hurts. Everything and everyone seems to just hate me. I haven't gone outside much and I'm mostly in my room. I only get out to talk to Loren or use the bathroom. I barley ever eat and I hate looking in the mirror.
Who am I? I ask myself. This isn't me, I've never acted like this before. I've just been a mess.
But this is what you wanted. You broke up with cam and you could've gave Jacob another chance. But why? So he could hurt me again? And I loved cam I just didn't... I don't know anymore. I can't stop replying that day in my head.
I bring my knees up and lay my head on them letting all the tears go, then my door slowly opened.
"Hey," Loren began to walk in before closing the door again, "it's so dark in here. Come on gabs I hate seeing you like this."
"I," whoa. My voice seems different. More high pitched, but it's probably just because I haven't herd it in a while, "I just can't stop thinking about them lor, I miss them both so much and I hate myself for not trying hard enough."
"Don't beat yourself up over it. Come on, get up. You and I are going out whether you want to or not." She puts her arm out.
I decide to take it, i don't want to trap myself in darkness my whole life.
"Ok, where are we going." I ask.
She laughs, "it's a surprise!"
I roll my eyes and laugh. We go out to the kitchen and I check what time it is.
"What the hell? It's already December 15?" I almost yell.
"Yeah you've been in that black hole for almost a month." I groan.
"But it's ok because today we're having fun to make up for all those days, come on let's get dressed, wear something kinda slutty but not uncomfortable. Something you can dance and feel good in but make sure you look extra hot. But it's already 3 and it gets dark at 6 so hurry up." She adds.
I laugh, "ok."
I rummage through my closet and find the perfect dress, it's not slutty but I like it. (( dress up top ))
     I put the dress on, curl my light brown hair, and put on nude heels. For my makeup I do a nude to very light pink ombré with winged eyeliner. I also do the usual like contour, highlight, concealer, all that hard work. After I finish filling in my eyebrows I put on some lashes with mascara and I'm finally done.
     "Lor, I'm ready." I walk into her room. She has her long blonde hair up in a straight perfect ponytail and she's wearing a two piece white dress. The top is covered with beautiful lace and the bottom is all white and ends just above the knee. She put on some red heels and smiled.
     "Let's go!" She grabbed my wrist and I was barley quick enough to grab my phone.

-- later that day
     "Ok! You can uncover your eyes." Loren giggles.
     We've been driving for like 20 minuets and she made me cover my eyes the whole time. When I finally let go, I looked around and saw bright multicolored lights and heard loud music playing and I knew exactly where we were.
     I smiled and looked at loren, "Nice try but there's no way we're getting in there. It's already," I looked at the time, "6:30 and it's almost completely dark."
     "Don't worry gabbs, I know some people." She winks and I roll my eyes playfully.
     We're at Luna. A place that brings back memories. We were all in a big group and if one person goes somewhere we all went. We were all inseparable. Jacob, cam, lor, Kristen Nash Blake and Taylor and Ariel. We would always come here all dressed up just to have some fun. But when high school finished, we all kind of went our own way. After high school, it was just Jacob me Loren and Cameron. But now it's just me and Loren. And we still talk to the rest of them, excluding cam and Jacob, but we don't hang out as much.
"Hey, it's ok you look like your about to cry stop thinking about them. Ok? It's about me and you tonight!" And she gets out of the car. I follow her to the front door, where we completely cut in front of a whole line.
"I'm Loren and this is gabby." She smiled brightly. I looked up making eye contact with probably the scariest man I've even seen. He's very big and muscular and he's wearing all black and is bald with a little ear piece. He seems to be mad or have a frozen frown but then he smiled and let us pass.
"What the- how did you do that?" I ask in shock. The music is louder and the colors seem brighter.
"I have my ways." She smirks and we enter the main large room.
     She grabbed my wrist, once again, and pulled me to the counter where a nicer looking man smiles.
     "Hey ladies, can I get you anything to drink? Our special today is the 'mrs claus' made with real candy canes." He rolled his eyes playfully and bends down, "you know what, it's not very good I don't recommend it." He whispers.
     I laugh, "no thanks we're only 18-"
     "And 19!" Loren quickly stops me.
     "Alright then what would you like to drink?" He asks smiling again.
     "I'll have a coke, and..." I turn to lor.
     "I'll have the same." He gives us two cans of coke and we walk to the dance floor.
The night was fun and it brought back memories, with the loud music playing. Everything was a blur and we jumped and danced around the floor. It was incredible, but I soon got tired and decided to go sit down.
"Ok," Loren frowns, "but what about me my gabb poo!" She giggles and with the kind of girl she is, I think she's had a little more than just a coke...
"There go talk to that guy he seems to be checking you out." I point to a boy who was, in fact, very cute if I don't say so myself.
"Ok." She twirls her blonde ponytail in her hands and walks over to the boy while giggling.
I start to walk over to the booth we were sitting at, everything was a whirl in my brain. I was thinking about high school and I realized I hadn't talked to my mom in so long I can't even count the weeks. 
     I decide to call her. I bring my phone up to my ear turning it up all the way so I can hear it. It's way to loud I won't be able to hear her. I think to myself. I start to walk outside but she doesn't pick up. I feel tears building up and my throat burns. Still looking down at my phone I bump into someone.
     "I'm so sorry!" I quickly look up and regret living.
     "It's- wait hey! Gabby? are you ok you look," he paused and stared at my face, "you look so sad, and different."
     "Camron..." in total shock. My stomach fell to the floor, my throat feels like it's on fire. I feel like hugging him and bawling my eyes out, just like the night Jacob cheated on you. I bite my lip and try to hold in my tears.
     "How have you been?" He asked.
Oh you know, just locking my self in my dark hole for a whole month, not being able to control my tears while thinking of our old memories that clearly mean nothing to you. You know, the usual.
     "Um, I've been-" I pause and think, "I've been great, how about you?"
     He smiles, "me too, actually..." he trails off and studies my face. I'm so close to letting my tears out I shouldn't even try. Then his smile died.
     "How about this, we both know we're both lying. So let's talk."

••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••
I know it's a weird way to end it but here you go🙂 I've been working on this chapter all week so😂 enjoy ig
~meghan❤️