Hey I'm Cody. Yea I know it's 5 am, what is sleep? lol I'm joking. But am I? I literally never sleep. My mind is filled with crazy things. Also, im not making up a "character" or anything. This is me, @HoldingOn2Joshler or whatever. And this is my journal. Also, by "my mind is filled with crazy things" I mean I think of everything. It seems at night my brain decides to think if every question in the world or repeat something someone said to me. For example, someone asked me "why do you choose to be Trans at this age? Your not even in high school yet-your a kid. What if you want to go back?" The thing is, I ask myself that every single day. What if I do want to go back? What if I'm actually a girl? This is what keeps me up all night. Also the fact I have paranoia and I feel like everyone's watching me and everyone's talking about me and everyone's making fun of me. Or something's watching me. I remember staying up one night till the sun rose and not closing my eyes because I felt something-everything was there. I backed myself up to a wall and froze. It was really frightening and I hated it. Anyways, in this journal I'll write whatever I feel like at the moment. Sometimes I'll wright just one word. A sentence. A song lyric. My mood. Anything. Now don't expect me to wright every night, I most likely won't. My life isn't that exiting, or important really, but I'll try to write. Not like anyone cares anyways. Okay, I'm gonna sleep (or at least try too) , so, goodnight, I guess.
------Feeling; Very confused and sad for some reason , Idk why¿
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His journal (the journal of a Ftm boy)
Non-FictionMy personal journal and all the weird things that happen during my Ftm transistion.
