I thought I wanted to die...

Chapter 3: The Rock and That guy

      I pull up to The Rock and there are 2 cars parked there. One was Jades and One was  a car I didn't recognize. I don't know why she where there but I knew I just wanted to see the view of the ocean and be by myself. They weren't in sight so I had some time to myself.

      Im just sitting here on the hood of my car only 2 drinks in and here she comes up the hill side. With Gen her best friend and that guy. She had the dirtiest looks along with Gen when she saw me. But Jack didn't. He had a Grin.

      "What a nice surprise, the wicked which of the bitch" I was not even close to being drunk enough for this.

      " Just shut the fuck up, honestly No one cares about you. " I smiled thinking she had a good comment.
      
       " Got it, and I care why.? Oh wait I have to be the perfect princess that sleeps with everyone to get friends" I rolled my eyes

       " I'm so fed up with your bullshit, just got home so your daddy can beat you some more" She smiled while because she knew she hit a bad spot.

       "Hey, now that's to far" Jack knew it was to far to.
     
        I jumped off the hood of my car and had her by her throat pushing her against her car, " I suggest you keep your mouth shut. You of all people knows what happens when I'm mad." Referring to the last time she said something this bad. " Now you can leave and get the fuck out of my sight" I let go and sat back on the hood of my car and took another drink.
  
     She stood there in shock and opens her car door and looks at Gen and Jack  "are you guys coming?" She really wanted to leave. And of course Gen gets In the car still hasn't said anything.

     "Hell no, did you not just hear what came out of your mouth. I'm sorry but you are a bitch." And leaned against my car and crossed his arms.

    She drives away really fast and he turns to me and I take another drink. Now I'm feeling a buzz. "Does your father really beat you.?" He has a worried look on his face.
 
     I sat there a couple minutes and I could just feel the pain in my body starting agian just rememebering what my fayher did to me and me wanting to just have that one thing that doesn't make me feel the pain. "You know she is just talking out of her ass." I grinned and was staring at the sunset.

    He looks at my check closely and rubs off alittle makeup "you know you can talk to me"

     I look at him "What happens in my life is non of your business" I start to get off my car and I can feel my eyes burning from wanting to cry. Fucking alcohol made me cry damn it. And I make it to my door.

   He grabs me by my arm "Please don't walk away, if there's anything happening I can help you"

    My arm burned so bad. He had a good grip on my cuts and then the bleeding started I felt my arm start to get wet. He pulls his hand away because I winced. And he Grabs my hand and pulls up my sleeve and pulls me close to his body and just hugs me. I try and fight him off but he was a foot taller then me. I was 5'3, He just hugs me tighter.

    "Please come to my house tonight, no one needs to feel this way or have anything like that happen" he sounded so sincere.

    " I just met you today hell no!!."
I finally got out of his hug and grabbed the bottle off the hood of my car and went for my door handle again.
 
     "OK fine, then stay here with me. I will sleep right here. " He sat on the hood of my car.

      "If my dad knew that I didn't come home. You have no idea what he would do to me. " yeah I'm 18 but a alcoholic pissed is the last thing I wanted.

       "Please  dont" like I knew what he meant. I took another drink and got in the car and turned it on and revd my engine "you might want to get off the car or your gonna get tossed off by my car."

      He got off the car, and I started to drive home. I only had a buzz and it was about 5pm which meant my dad was passed out drunk on the couch when I got home. Thank God. I crept upstairs to my room and locked my door, took off my jacket sat on my bed and cried.... I held my wrists and cried for over and hour. Until I fell asleep.