I thought I wanted to die...

chapter one: Flashback

I rolled over to shut off my alarm. My eyes burned from the night before from crying myself to sleep. My body was soar and covered in bruises. I rolled on my back to look at the ceiling.

Great.... another piece of shit day. I thought to myself.

I closed my eyes and I could picture everything that happened last night.

Flashback~~

- I walked into the kitchen to get a glass of water and yet again my dad was drinking.

"And what do you think you are doing" he said slurring his words he could barely talk.

" Just getting a glass of water" I said with a blank face. Trying not to panic.

" Im not waisting water on a little bitch like you" He could barely get up. But he moved really fast and slapped me. My eyes were instantly red and filled with tears.

"I never said you could cry either!" He was so mad. he started to take off his belt and I tried to back up. But I had no ware to run I was backed into a corner I fell to the ground with the first lash. I screamed to the pain.

"Stop!" I screamed again to another lash of his belt. he had hit me about 15 more times each time with more rage all over my body.

"Now get out of here" He put on his belt again and sat back down and started to his chair and sat down drink in like nothing ever happend.

I ran upstairs and locked my door and ran into my bathroom and cried for about an hour. Nothing ran threw my head but wanting to kill myself. I slowly got up and opened my cabinet and took out my razor, pressed it to my arm. One... Two....Three cuts went across my wrists. blood dripping onto the sink and I just watched as blood came out. I could feel the pain on my wrists but my thoughts were cleared so I put my razor back and cleaned the blood wrapped uo my arm. Climbed into bed and fell asleep.