After last night, it was lots of fun.Harry and i managed to go bowling after the walk and we had some frozen yogurt. I still couldn't get over his face when i told him i couldn't fall in love me. Maybe he does love me. All i know is i love him without a doubt but i can't and i know i won't be able to if the doctors give me bad news. I kind of shrugged off what i will be expecting in a hours. The phone call. Ok so when my aunty was sick i found out i was sick. Weird huh? i know. I was miserable and my parents were devistated. They have done everything they can t make me happy. They have payed so much money on drugs for me and happiness. Thats how i got this college. They don't know about Harry yet. They don't know i've been seeing him.This is hard. So ever since we found out that i am sick i had created this bucket list. The list consists of twenty things i want to do before i die. I want to complete these tasks. I have been carrying the bucket list around with me, everywhere i go..just incase. My aunty had leukemia and so do i. I have been on and off, the doctors come back with positive and negative tests all the time and it is frustraiting. I went in to the doctors a few months ago and they said i was fine but i had a missed call two nights ago saying i have to go back to get checked again. This time i will need someone with me. I will tell Nat first, then Harry.
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"hey Beth what's up? how are you and Harry going?" she asks me. Great another thing to talk about.
"Hey Nat umm...well i have something to tell you...please don't react in a bad way ok i know this is going to hurt you...i don't know how to say this but yeah i have leukemia."
"hhhauu oh my god. Beth are you ok? do you need me to come over? oh my god please! shit...Beth i love you everythings going to be ok" she says and i can here her crying. "aumm yeah i'm fine....uhhmmhm yeah i love you to and surree- you can come over." i say balling.
"i've already left...i will still talk to you on the phone. please just don't leave me Beth" she says.
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"Beth babe! i'm here!" she says opening the door and heading up to my room. God this is bad timing.
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"uh yes hello is this Beth?"i here the doctor
"yes it it sir, are my results in?" i say and then Nat comes into my room and sees i'm on the phone. She sits on te end of my bed, rubbbing my back.
"yes they are and well we are really sorry Beth but it's positive...you have cancer...." he says.
"i am so sorry this is bad news but we can fix this..i'm sure. could you please come in for another check up? maybe tomorrow 12:00?" he asks.
"mhhm sure i'll be there i say" sort of crying
"ok darling well i will see you here then tomorrow..goodbye"
"goodbye" i hung up.
I sit there in silence for a while. "Beth" Nat starts. "yeah" i say smiling. "everything is going to be ok" she says smiling. "how do you know? i love Harry....should i just tell him that i love him and add on the Leukemia part?" i ask all stressed and worried. "you love him?" she asks smiling. "yeah i do...but i told he's not allowed to fall in love with me" i say teary. "oh god...we all know he loves you anyway...we see everything, the way he looks at you and smiles eveytime you smile. The way he kissed you in class infront of everyone after he beat up your ex boyfriend. He loves you" she says touching my hand.
"i have a bucket list." i say to her.
"that's awesome! complete it Beth...i know you can" she says. Her phone starts ringing.
"oh no it's my dad...i gotta go, are you ok? do you want me to come back later? we can have a sleepover..it'll stop you from thinking" she tells me. "sure" i say and she kisses me on the cheek.
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"so do you want to watch devil wears prada or a walk to remember? oh wait shit....sorry sorry sorry!!!!!!!" she says as i start to cry. A walk to remember is my life story except i'm not dead yet and she never had a bucket list. "it's ok it's fine....hahaha devil wears prada it is!" i say and put it in the dvd player. The rest of the night consisted with makeovers, eating, talking, drawing and watching movies.
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He keeps me warm - Harry Styles fanfic(Editing/Not Complete)
Fanfiction**Thank you to @hiorheey for making the book cover! it is so lovely! go follow her and read her stories xxx*** Beth is an 18 year old college girl, studying in England. She's Discovering her self and looks for what she wants in the future. She wants...
