The Road With God

Blessed

"Why can't I get things right. ","Why am I always messing things up.","Well if that's the case then why is it so hard for me to just give up and sa-. " Those are just the thoughts that go running through my head. I had to stop thinking that way because I really wanna keep going down this path, but I'm just at the edge.....the edge of letting go.
OH, Yeah! How rude of me for not introducing myself well my name is Katrina Jones, I'm sixteen years old and I have a three year old sister. I love being by myself and the warm sun setting breeze and just being surrounded around positive things.

I live with both of my parents and love them to death, but they the reason I think like this. Always downing me and thinking the worse of things, but say it's out of love, but don't know that they are crushing my pride and self confidence. Right now I'm in class and the subject is Algebra.

This class is like a piece of cake to me because it's very easy, but the students in my class room seems to be confused and don't understand. I couldn't resist the looks on their face so I decided to explain it in a better way in front of my class.

I raised my hand and as the teacher acknowledged me I sat up right in my seat and said, " Ms. Patterson can I explain the equation you are breaking down in a understandable way be-." Before I could finish I was of course interuppted by her smart response.

"Oh I'm sorry I didn't know it was another teacher in my class room with a teacher masters degree." She said while giving me the evil eye. This was actually the first time I decided to tell her that her teaching is not helpful and that I find my own ways to understand, and just that these kids in here stay confused every day.

"I wasn't trying to be smart I was ju-." ,"Ok that's about enough out of you Ms. Jones and it just sounds like your getting smart with me and trying to tell me how to teach my class. Whether you were trying to help or not, thank you very much but I seem to know what I'm doing, now either you stay quiet and let me do this or you pack your things and go. " she had said while waiting for my actions to answer her question.

I stayed quiet and sat there in my seat feeling embarrassed and ashamed. It was about a thousands eyes staring hard on me and some students even laughed, even though I wasn't trying to be the class clown.

She caught on to my actions and continued with her confusing teaching and thinking she was helping the students. She asked the students in the class room to help with the equations, but did any one offer to solve it? Nope.

I was just ready to leave and that's what I mean about messing up I know I was right but I be feeling so wrong, like it was just all a mistake and a waist of my time. Why do I always waist my time making mistakes I just wanna do something right for the first time. RING!RING! went the sound of the bell and as I got up to pack my things Ms.

Patterson was walking towards me and when she finally got to me she said, "I hope you see where I was coming from and that I wasn't trying to shut you down, but your a child and some things you can't say and your opinion wasn't acceptable.

" I gave her a warm smile and said, " I understand I'm sorry for even saying I should have just stayed in my place and kept going about my day. "

She then walked off and I headed out of her classroom and I noticed she did give me a puzzled face, but what can I say I wasn't gonna argue with her any ways. I'm tired and just ready to go home and sleep on my comfortable bed. As I was leaving the building I saw my mother's car and headed straight over to it.

      When I opened up the door she greeted me with a hello and I replied back explaining to her that it was a learning day. I looked out the window and saw the pretty trees and beautiful sun set. I just love the feel of nature and the feeling is warm and fuzzy. It's like they are talking to me through their colors and the expressions are very happy, and cheerful.

     Twenty minutes later, we finally arrive at the house. I got my things and went inside the house and to my room. I layed my bookbag down on my bed and throwed on some comfortable clothes to just to relax. As I was laying down and looking at tv my room door opened and I saw that it was my three year old sister Ashley. "Kat?" She had asked and I looked at her and saw that she was holding her cup. I knew instantly that she wanted something to drink, so I got up and fixed her some.

     I love that girl so much with her cute curly puff balls and her big light brown eyes even though she's gonna get on my nerves in the future. I handed her the cup and she went about her business to watch her favorite tv show,  which was my favorite child hood show cailou. The good days I really do miss the- BOOM BOOM BANG went a noise that had startled me. I ran into the living room to check on Ashley and saw that she had the same expression as me.

    I grabbed her hand and headed straight to the door that was already open and to my surprise I see that we have a new neighbor. Looked like my mother was helping the old lady with moving a dresser and it didn't go as planned. "You stay right here Ashley I will be right back. " I told my sister and she nodded her head. As crazy as it sounds she actually listens and don't go running off. I walked over to my mother but I didn't see the old lady anywhere around, "Oh Hey sweety don't mind the noise you heard, it's no big problem our new neighbor named Mrs. Linda. said that she will just throw it away. " my mother had said.

    I gave her a confused look and thinking that the dresser could still be some good or come in handy,  but that's her decision. "Ok and where did she go?","I'm right here darling and Oh! My you are precious and nice to meet you wise little woman, Ha!  I crank myself up but my name is Linda, but I prefer grandma."

     She had said before I could turn around and when I did she had her hand out for me to shake it. I did the favor in return and smiled at her and thanking her for the compliment. "Hello, my name is Katrina and nice to meet you as well." I had said and thinking to myself that this lady vibe is really warm and I'm already comfortable around her. My mother saw that we were getting along just fine so she didn't budge in and I didn't even notice when she left.

  "Well I'll see you later and I hope you enjoy the neighborhood. " I said while waving her a goodbye, but when I was walking away she just smiled and her lips were moving but I couldn't hear her or at least it wasn't meant for me to hear. It was like she was whispering something under her breath and I wonder what she was saying.