The Road With God

The Truth

      When I got into my house I felt as if someone was behind me, but I brushed it off and closed the door. I went up into my room and saw that my mother was watching tv with my dad and little sister. It brings joy to my heart to see them like that I turned ahead and went up the stairs straight to my room.

      Thank God that it's Friday and I get to sleep all day tomorrow and no home work. I layed back on my bed and just started thinking and when I do my thoughts get so deep to the core. BUZZ BUZZ my phone had went and when I picked it up it was my ex James.

     I can't believe that all these months.... years and you finally decide to call me how dare you... it's like I can't even talk to him or look him in the eyes. He cheated on me and I caught him in the act and he saw me and it's like he didn't even care about me and continued on doing what he was doing.

      I stood there looking like a fool and felt really stupid,  he even talked bad about me, but what was I suppose to say I was just sooooooo stupid back then and I can't become that person anymore. I ended the call and played some music to take my mind off of him and just things period, but that obviously didn't work.

    I could feel the tears trying 2 come up and holding them back just makes it even worse. I'm so dumb and stupid and Mrs. Linda called me wise ha she just do not know that I made some stupid decisions and did dumb things. I just need a good long nap because all these scars in my heart and also pray to God. I know I may mess up, but I still believe in his miracles, but I just don't feel important.

    "Katrina! Get up girl you have been sleeping for four hours straight and your room look a mess." The voice of my mother had went and while lingering around my room. I woke up and looked at my phone and saw that if was 2:00 in the afternoon...Wow!  I thought to myself that was a good sleep. "Good afternoon mother. " I said all shocked,  but still a little sleepy.

     "Good afternoon to you too as well and get up this is not hibernating season. " she said while picking up my dirty clothes so she can wash them. I pulled the covers off of me and tried to get out of the bed, but it was like this force holding me back and it scared me. My heart was pounding hard and I was freaking out a little, but I tried once again and accepted that I was just stuck.

       I looked up at my ceiling and then back down to see something being thrown through my window. Thank God that my window was already open which was weird and a good thing at the same time. That's when I felt a gentle release on me and I got up to see what went through my window and saw a baseball with a note saying.

Baby girl do not feel alone for I shall make you feel at home you are welcomed to come see me you have a lot of work that has to be done but it will be worth it because at the end victory is won.

      I picked up the ball and placed it on my dresser, but still a little confused on who it's from and how it was perfectly thrown through my window. When I finished cleaning up my room I washed up and put on some jeans and my cute blue hoodie and went down stairs to look for something to snack on. As I made it into the kitchen by dad was already downstairs eating an apple. "So you why you so sleepy, or your just being lazy?" My dad had asked me, "I really don't know but I do know that I needed that rest. " I had replied back finally finding something to snack on.

      It was a chocolate granola bar and I looooove those. I could eat  a whole box of them without no problem. My dad then said one more thing, "Oh yeah your babysitting your sister today, so make sure she stay in your sight and don't do nothing crazy, remember if you wanna cook something make sure to not burn the house. "

     I gave him a nod, and walked away annoyed because he says that eveytime he goes out. That really makes me feel like he doesn't trust me or don't believe that I know right from wrong. The way he says it also really rub me the wrong way,  but I'll just try my best to see past that and look at the positive effects of things.

       As my parents grabbed their keys and headed to the door they said their goodbyes and went out the door. I looked out the window and saw that they were driving out the drive way. I turned around and caught the time and saw that it was 3:20 and decided to go check on Ashley. She's always in the living room like it's her room and I saw that she was looking at tv and the same show. "Kat look."

     she had said while pointing at our next door neighbor house. I looked at her with a puzzled expression and said, "What is it sweety?" ,"Go."she said still with her hand pointing to her house. Now in my head I'm thinking that she wants to go over there but something inside of me was telling me that I needed to. I just felt it strong in my heart which was really new, but it was like I had nothing to worry about.

     I brushed off what she said and got up to wash the dishes so I can have dinner ready for the both of us. The minute I was about to wash dishes there was a knock at the door.

      I went straight to the door and looked out the peek hole and saw that it was Mrs. Linda next door. I opened up the door and immediately she pulled me in to hug her and all I heard her whisper into my ear was, "You are special baby girl you play an imports role on this earth." I then looked at her as she smiled at me. I was freaked out in so many ways like how... How did she I didn't believe in those words or I didn't feel that way.

     "Thank yo-. " I was cut off by her saying, "I'm sorry to cut you off but baby girl the day I met you I just knew it was something up with you and that you weren't right.

   I believe that your ready to know the truth as well." I the felt a strong pull on my heart and head like this is wah I really needed. I didn't fight what she was saying because the thing is she was right and I was willing to get her help, because I was tired of being hurt and not seeing good in myself.

     "Ok and I'm ready to take on the  challenges that's for me." I said while looking her in her eyes and she laughed and replied, "Oh your not ready baby girl but those who are willing to fight shall get prepared and be fed wisdom. " I felt really good about deciding to let this lady in because at the end of the day I'm trying 2 find who I am.