My Savior

chapter sixteen

After Yuuma's confession I went home to get some rest, but I couldn't sleep. Making sure my father was asleep I snuck out of the house with my violin. I made my way to the training area and sat on top of one of the boulders. I take my violin and began to play to forget the guilt that was bothering me. I kept messing up on my cords and the way I moved the bow. After hearing myself make a mistake for the tenth time, I gave up in frustration and shoved the violin back into its case slamming it shut. I took a big breath and pulled my knees to my chest. I looked up at the full moon giving light to the darkness. Why did you have to get feelings for me once I found someone else. I hope he doesn't hate me I thought to myself.Feeling a familiar presence I look to the direction it was coming from.
"What are you doing out here so late." Tobi says from across the field. I was already use to him finding me when I was completely alone.  It was stalkerish , but to be honest I loved it. That's one of the reasons I fell in love with him. The way he always appeared when I needed someone to talk to the most. The times I felt I was losing faith in myself in my training, he inspired me to never give up on myself. The nightmares about being almost rape to being at my father's funeral, he was there to hold me till I fell back to sleep. To the times my father would get more sick or I remanince about my mother, he would always be there to listen, but right now was one of the times I wanted to be alone.
"It's nothing." I didn't feel like retelling what I want to forget the most. He finishes walking across the field and sets next to me on the boulder.
"I see your face tells a different story." I knew I couldn't hide anything from him. I look at him then to the stars.
"Yuuma confessed his feeling for me." I say quietly.
"What." He says in a icy tone. I forgot that him and Yuuma didn't end in good terms.
"Please, don't be angry at him." I begged and reached to grab his arm.
"What did you do" I give him a small bittersweet smile.
"I rejected him." He tilts his head.
"So, why are you sad." He asks confused. Taking a big breath I tell him what bothered me about this situation.
"I just wanted to be friends, but after this I don't we can ever have normal friendship. I'm scared that things won't be the same like before. It would be awkward and knowing he probably hurting right now, makes me feel guilty." I let go my knees to stretch my legs and look back at the stars. Tobi moves to lean against the boulder with his hands behind his head.
"I don't get why you should feel sad, isn't it better to make it clear right now than to lead him on. Plus I don't like you hanging around him." He says. I guess he had a point there, but he doesn't like me to hang out with Yuuma?
"Why?" I look over my shoulder. He sits up and reaches to grab my face gently.
"Because You belong to me." When he said that I blushed. I close my eyes and lean into his touch as he gently strokes my cheek. He really does love me and I really love him I thought. My lips lift into a smile enjoying this moment. He then pulls his hand back.
"Come, I'll walk you home, you have training tomorrow morning." I reached to grab his wrist before he got up.
"Can you be with me until I fall asleep and you can take me to my bed, like you always do." I say while giving his wrist a squeeze. He made his way to lean back on the boulder. I scoot next to him and leaned on his shoulder.
"Thank you Obi."  He then wraps his arm around me and pulls me to his lap. I stiffen and take some time to calm down, i lean into his chest. My heartbeat finally calms and I close my eyes. "Get some sleep." He whispers as I felt his lips peck my forehead. I smile, his heartbeat soothed me that I finally fell asleep, like always.
***
"So, if I'm going to write a song for your wedding, I need inspiration." I say to Haru. We were in his home to help me write the lyrics for Manami's and his song.  Haru was such a nice guy, he works as a painter and was a good looking guy. He was a tall, slightly tan, with brown eyes and blond hair. When he smiled he his dimples would show,  I can see him and Manami's children will be blessed with good looks.
"Why come to me?" He asks, as we drink tea in his kitchen.
"Because I already hear every other day how amazing you are and how she feels about you." I let out a tired breath. I didn't mention all the negative things she would complain about to.
"Haha, I get it, so what do I do." He rubs his neck. Taking my pencil in my hand I begin to tap it against the table.
"Just say anything that comes to your mind when you think of her. " He shrugs his shoulders.
"Um... I don't know where to start."
"What do you love about her."  I wait patiently for him to say something. He sat there looking at his tea cup thinking. He then looked up at me.
"Her smart mouth, her craziness, how she's stubborn, loud, always wanting attention" I raise my eyebrow at him. I write down what he said and clear my throat.
"Ok, so let's try for more positive qualities." I sweat drop. He starts to laugh.
"I guess those were all negative, but that's what I love about here .....I love her imperfections." He explains. I gave him a half smile and wrote what he said down. I ask him another question.
"How did you know she was the one." He didn't take some time to think and responded,
"I remember that. It was when she came over to my home unexpected. She scolded me about being more neat and I actually listen to here. She made me a better man, I quit my smoking and gambling habits for her. I remember shopping for groceries with her and not once I was tempted to buy some cigarettes, or even noticed them, because all I could notice was her. When I look into her eyes laughing with her at random things I knew she was the one I wanted to spend the rest of my life with." He says while looking at the table while smiling at those memories. Writing everything down, an idea pop into my head.
"You know what. I think you should sing the song." I grin at him.
"W-what!" Brought out of his daze, he looks at me shocked.
"That you should sing the song at your wedding."i repeat myself thinking how surprised and happy Manami will be.
"But I don't sIng or if I am any good" he says while shaking his head.
"It doesn't matter, as long as it comes from here" I point to were my heart is located.
"Is all that matters". He looks at me then back down at his tea cup. I saw that he turned his head to stare at the photos he had on his refrigerator. Following his sight I see there was a picture of Manami and him. It was of there faces, Manami was smiling and Haru was giving her a kiss in the check. They looked like they were made for each other.  He finally looks back at me.
"Ok. I'll sing." I got excited giving him a gaint smile.
"You will have no idea how this will mean to her." I say to him.
"Ok, let's see how your vocals are." When I said that he turned pink with embearessment.
"R-right now." He stutters out. I roll my eyes at him.
"Don't worry I won't make fun of you." I try to comfort him.
***
When the lessons where over I was mopping.
"You ok Rina?" He says patting my back.
"No, how can someone who never sang before, have such a good voice. It's unfair you have a better sinning voice than me." I say as my head was on the table.
"It's not that good." He tries to make me feel better. Oh kami why do you give talents to those who don't do anything with it.
"Such a waste of talent." I continue to sulk. I hear Haru let out a weak laugh.
***
Taking a gaint breath I walk into the restaurant and sit across from Yuuma. It had been over a week since he confessed to me. The only reason we are here today was because I called him to meetup with me. I wanted to check up on him.
"Hey." I say.
"Hey." His bangs were hiding his eyes and he kept looking down. I reached for the bag that contained the music player he won me. Even if he got for free I felt he deserves it more.
"Here I cant accept this." I slid the bag across the table towards him. He takes it and looks inside. He shakes his head and pushes it back to me.
"I won it for you, so just keep it."  He finally looks up and I see his once bright eyes were now dull and had black bags under them. I then releazied he also looked more pale. He wasn't taking care of himself. That made me feel like shit, knowing I'm the reason for it.
"When was the last time you have eaten or slept well?" He shrugs his shoulders and ignored the questions.
"I'm planning on leaving soon."  He says. I call the waitress over. I order some soup, along with rice bowl and some onigiri. Once she was done taking the order I look back at Yuuma. I move to sit next to him and take his hand with mine.
"Eat please do this and I'll accept the music player alright." He gives a nod he wasn't speaking much and it just made my heart hurt.
"Do you hate me?" I ask.
"What." He looks at me confused. I just shrug my shoulders waiting for an answer.
"I can never hate you Rina." He say and I looked at him with my brows creased together.
"But, look what I have done to you." He gives me a weak smile and it turn to a frown.
"I hate myself for being to late." He leans back against the booth. He looks at the ceiling and continues to speak.
"I envy him. I know who you ment when you said you loved someone else. I hate him that he makes you smile and gets your love." He was talking about Tobi, not knowing what to say I look at the table. I knew exactly how he felt, because that's how I felt when he left with Ame. I was relieved when the waitress returned with our food.
"Come on, let's eat." I say poiletly. He seats up and begins to eat.
"If you can't sleep drink some chamomile tea before bed, it will help." I tell him while I dig into my rice bowl.
"Yes Rina-sama." He teases. I give him a weak laugh happy that he was acting like his past self.
***
After eating we walk out of the restaurant. Things will never be the same between us like before, but at least we can still be a part of each other lives.
"Alright remember, you promised to take care of yourself for me." I tell him as we say our goodbyes. He will be living town tomorrow morning, so this will be the last time we will see each other for awhile, he says.
"I will, don't worry." He outstretched his arms for a hug and I walk into it. He wraps his arms around me and whispers
"I love you Rina, maybe in the next life I won't be too late and we can be together."
"Maybe." I say quietly. He let's go of the hug and ruffles my hair one last time. Giving him one last smile, he walks away.
***
"I want you to keep studying on posions and practice your aiming. I like to see improvement when I return." Tobi says. He wasn't happy when I told him I saw Yuuma again, but I told him he was already leaving town. He was still a little mad, but happy he was leaving. He was leaving too and I felt down not knowing when he will return.
"Ok, please be safe and come back as soon as you can."
"I will."  I wrap my arms around him and burry myself into his chest. I hate it when he left I wish I could be with him by his side all the time. He pulls me back gently grabbing my face with his hands he gives me a soft kiss. Then pulls me back to him wrapping his arms around me.
"I love you obi." I whispered.
"I love you too Rin" he whispered back. I give him one last squeez and let go of him. With that he disappears into the forest.
***
"Yeah the whole clan taken out by one of there own. Can you believe that." I over hear another customer talking about the phenomenon that happened in the hidden leaf village. The legendary Uchiha clan was slaughtered, by one of there own leaving no survivors from what read. There's rumors saying there was one survivor, but even if there was one out of a whole clan was unbelievable. I was shocked, how can someone have the heart to do that to innocent people. The worst part is the man is loose and a rouge ninja now. Some pychopath I hope I never meet a monster like that.
"Hey Rina!! This is the fourth time I called out your name." I jump and look at Manami.
"You ok?" She asks realizing that I had spaced out again.
"Yeah, it's just have you heard what happened."
"Yes, who hasn't heard. This is what I mean by the shinobi world is dangerous Rina, and why I don't like you messing with it." She scolds me.
"I'm alright. Why should they target me, I don't have any enimies or a threat to anyone." I explained to her again why I am safe.
"I guess you have a point, but still let's pray to kami that those lives rest easy and that man be brought to justice." I nod in agreement.
"I couldn't a agree more." Thinking about Tobi, hoping he was alright and didn't come face to face with the clan assassin. Please be safe I pray to Kami.
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Till next chapter ^_^ and happy new years everyone.