I have too much time on my hands. You know that feeling of having absolutely nothing to do? So you just sit around and think of every possible thing. Next thing you know you’re in your feelings, doing something stupid, or both. No? Okay, it could be just me. I find that when I have too much time on my hands(which is often) I get really upset. I spend my time feeling alone and like I’m missing out on the great things in life. I see everyone on social media and they seem to be living this amazing life full of laughter, love, and friends. But me, I’m at home, hoping to find the missing piece to my soul somewhere on the internet or even YouTube. Crazy I know. I toggle between social media, YouTube, and plenty of fish. It’s like I’m always looking for something but what that something is I don’t know.
This week I been feeling sorry for myself which is a normal occurrence especially around the holiday time. I have searched for new jobs. I have searched for different diy ideas for my future business. I have looked into my local community college to start some classes. It’s such a weird feeling to be every where but no where.
Maybe I’m searching for my place in the world or maybe I just need love in my life or maybe I need a new hobby. See my dilemma? I don’t know what they hell I need and to be searching for something but never knowing “what” is frustrating.
But hey, let the search for whatever, continue.
