Love Lost

At Blake's

I quickly got out of my car and ran up to Blake's house.

"Honey, I'm home!" I yelled joking around while carefully closing the door behind me. I then ran up the stairs to her room and set my stuff down on her bed. I still didn't understand how she could like bands like One Direction and then like bands like Black Veil Brides. It was very confusing. I decided to just sit on her bed. I looked around at all the posters on her walls. Her room was painted black and she had hard wood floors. Her room was absolutely perfect.

"Hey!!" she yelled interupting my thoughts, "Spill it! Tell me everything!!! I wanna know!! This hasn't happened for like a year!! I thought it would take forever for you to get over Austin!! It's about time!!" My smile slowly faded. I still wasn't completely over Austin. He was my first love, a long relationship, an amazing one. I loved him and trusted him with my life. He cheated on me and was the one who made me start my cutting and stop eating. I wanted to be skinny. I wanted to release pain. I had no idea of what else I should've done.

"Ana..." She started. I looked up at her with sad eyes.

"It's okay Blake, you didn't know... It's my fault anyway." I quickley said getting up.

"Ana, it's not okay... I thought you would be over him by now, I mean it has been a year... You need to get back out there." She said trying to calm me down.

"Maybe I don't want to just get back out there. I'm fine with just staying in my own little bubble of hate." I whispered.

"Oh my gosh Ana! I can't believe you! He's not just going to come back to you! I'd be very disapointed in you anyway! He broke your heart! Do you see what else he did? Just look at you!" 

"What? What about me, Blake?" I snapped back.

"Your cuts, your body, your..."

"Stop!!" I screamed. I was getting very pissed now. It was my desicion, she doesn't need to but in all the time. It was all her fault for bringing Austin up anyway.

"Here." I whispered. I threw all of our movies, snacks, and facials onto her bed, "I just wanted to have girl time, but nevermind." I then left her house and drove away before she could have another say.

Thanks for everyone that's been reading this! I'm so sorry I haven't posted in a pretty long time... I was pretty busy... I'm going to start to try to update at least once a week! :D <3