Love Lost

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It was hard for me to concentrate on the road. My mind was running a million miles an hour. Why did Blake have to bring all of that up? It's my life, my body, my mind, my decissions. She didn't have to butt in. I was more worried about something else, more like someone. 

Justin.

What if Justin didn't like me? I admitt it... I'm a mess! Not a small one, a giant one! I've been used, played, and bullied. What if he's the same...? I doubt it. He's probably one of the most poplular guys at his school! He's hot, has great taste in music, and so far an amazing personality! Who wouldn't love that?!

*Ring... Ring... Ring...*

"Hello?" I spoke into the phone.

"Hey, Ana, I just wanted to apologize..." I person dragged on through the phone. It was Blake.

"I don't want to talk about this right now."

"But I do!" She whined.

"Well I don't really care if you do or don't!" I screamed into the phone before I hung up.

I started going back to what I was thinking. I just can't believe Blake sometimes. Yeah, she's my best friend, but she can be a major bitch sometimes... I still love her! Just not right now. Not after she pulls the whole "You need to fix your whole life and turn it around" card. Geez... But I mean, she's also the only who gets me and understands me! I love our crazy moments, and how random we are, and how everyone looks at us strange because of our hair and make up... Now I feel bad. I decided to pull out my phone and text her...

-Hey, I'm really sorry Blake...- I texted really fast while glancing at the road.

-It's whatever.- she texted back. She was obviously really pissed at me. I screwed up.. I know, she was only trying to help me....

I was finally glad about getting home. I quickly got out of my car, locked the door and sprinted to the porch. I grabbed the house key from under the doormat and unlocked the house door, got inside, and simply locked the door again. I sprinted back up the stairs as fast as I could and set my alarm. I put on my pajamas, turned on my stereo. I listened to music until my eyes got heavy and I fell asleep.