SING! One shots AshXJohnny

Thoughts

[[>Ash POV<]]

At the opening of the new theater there wasn't much to begin with. We all knew things are going to be great for us now, we are going to end up like the stars we all dream of every time we close our eyes. But would it really be worth it?

Lance and I started this thing together with a simple goal in mind. We'll perform, win, get the money, be famous.. but now that I think of it.. it wasn't really my dream to begin with. It was all Lance and his dream to become famous while I crumble down in the back.

Then instead of us, I was the one that got chosen to be live on this stage. Not Lance, but me. I still can't believe that something like that happened. And that something like that had to show me what a jerk Lance really was.

The girly songs and the girly clothes? Yeah I still have to get used to them.. like a lot! But they do fit me in kind of a way! The clothes of course... the song? Nah they just aren't my thing at the moment. But I have changed. My looks and... my way of thinking I guess.

But Lance, man I never thought it would end between us like this. Him cheating on me because of the way I was acting. I was just living my dream, being the girl I should have been since the beginning of time. And now that this all is over? That Lance is over? Well yeah what to do next?

Ever since I've been on stage.. thinking, no.. knowing that I did this for us, I've been wondering if it really was worth it all. Get the money, go get a nice band together so he can make his dreams come true! Did he ever even think about my dreams? About my voice? About..

" Are you alright? " A voice woke me up from my thoughts as I looked up into the eyes of Johnny, one of the talented singers I now gladly can call my friend. He sat down next to me as I watched him before I looked away.

" Oh yes yes.. I'm fine.. " I lied, I wasn't fine of course, the break up still hit me inside and I couldn't describe what it felt like. Maybe.. I was mad? Or.. sad.. or just really alone and needed a hug from someone close. " You don't look alright though.. you've been a bit sad all night. What's up? "

I felt glad that someone actually did care about the ways I was acting. Actually really really glad that he of all the people noticed that she wasn't feeling alright. " It's.. the whole, break up thing again... can't get it out of my head you know.. hard to describe how I feel.. it feels kinda.. like I'm.. " " Lonely? "

I turned my head towards him when he said that, he was right. That was it. " Yes.. exactly.. " Of course that was it. I had been with my boyfriend for over a year now.. we lived together and had much fun, haven't really been without him. " I know how you feel you know.. only the person I most care about is just.. in jail.. "

Oh yeah, his father was in jail. He told us that before the show so that we could all support him if he broke down. He did kinda know, but still it felt different. " I'm sorry.. I've been really selfish lately. " I spoke softly as I look towards my feet before I hear a soft chuckle from next to me so I look up to see him smile.

" Its not selfish to feel, it's okay to think and feel bad at amazing moments like these. But you just gotta remember to smile and be that person you always wanted to be. Besides… At moments like these, all you want is that person beside you that you love most in this world.. " After his wise words he stood up and gave that sweet smile again before he held out his hand to me.

" And that ex of yours.. he just doesn't know who he let go… " I smiled when he said that, even blushed a little. I just gave a nod before I took his hand and we went towards the others that we're having fun and we enjoyed ourselves.

And my ex? I never thought about him that night again, because I knew there was a possibility I could forget him by thinking of someone better.

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