My Sweet Disaster

Letter From Christian.

Aveline,

What the fuck did you do? Tried to kill yourself? Are you out of your mind? The hell with your fucked up life. Don't you ever think about me? How I will react after this. If I die, will you be happy? Will you be able to live your life normally?

Ave, I know how hard it is to live with the people who are torturing you with every single breath you let out. Believe me, I have gone through it once. But see? I am here, healthy and wealthy. I'm in a shithole but I'm happy that I left my past life. Aveline to fight the evil you have to understand the darkness. Just believe in yourself. I am always there for you. Just give me a sign and I will break the rules for you. And I'm not even being philosophical. It's all true. I will literally break the rules of my boarding school and come to you.

You know how much I adore you, how much I love you. Then why do you always do this?

Yes, I LOVE you so much! You see that? You know I hate to write this word because I want to say it out loud. Don't ever try to do that. You mean the world to me. You're the closest person and friend I think I can ever have. I am not ready to lose you. Just think about me until I get home. I will be there in April. So till then can you be a good girl? Stay in the hospital. Don't talk with Mrs.Greene. Elliot told me everything about those bruises. When I come, I will report about your mom. Is she even your real mother? I mean what the fuck? She bruised  your body? How--No I won't talk about your mother. I promised you that I will not to say anything about her. How do you still live with that human? Come with me Ave when I leave this shithole. Please.

How are you now? I will be sending a phone to you. Use it, and fight against your mother. I can't go with these letters. I need to hear your voice. I need to realize that you are still there.

Be calm, try to make your life a bit better. Paint, write, do things you love. Don't lose yourself, beautiful.

No worries, time heals every wounds.

Loads of Love,
Christian.

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"Elliot, do you think--" Christian inhaled deeply as he stared at his own writing, a tired look in his eyes, "--do you think Ave would have been alive if I wasn't a prick who couldn't help her?"

Elliot could see it. His brother was broken and so was he. 

"She chose to die, Chris." was all Elliot could say before both of them went back to staring at the calm water the last place Aveline visited, silently crying with the weather.