Buffy x Angel: One Shots

Buffy's Thoughts

(Buffy's thoughts during Season One, right after she kisses Angel and learns that he is a vampire.)

Buffy's POV

He was a vampire. He had killed countless of people before. So much blood was on his hands -- he was demon through and through.

And yet I was still so attracted to him.

Why did he treat me like this? Why did he show that he cared about me? Was it all a lie -- all a ploy to get me to fall for him, only for him to reveal that he was a monster?

He treated me... in a way no one ever had before. He showed me kindness, and kept me guessing. Kept me on my toes. Yeah, the whole vampire thing definitely was a plot twist.

After telling Willow and Xander all about it at school today, I was still incredibly upset. I hadn't left my room all day once I got home. I knew I would have to meet up with Giles in a little bit and go out to kill those creatures of the night.

Kill them. Vampires.

Angel was a vampire.

And no matter how many times I said it out loud, no matter how many times I thought over and over and over again about it, it seemed like it wouldn't stick. He was a vampire. I was a slayer. This could never be. He was a monster.

And yet, here I was -- still thinking about him. My heart was still beating fast.

And then, my mind ultimately wondered to the kiss we shared. Oh, that kiss. That glorious kiss.

I've never been kissed like that in my life -- and I doubted I ever would again. I desperately wanted to see him again -- my heart, my bones, my whole being wanted him to touch me like that again. Like that -- and more.

But it wasn't right -- he was a vampire.

I have to kill him.

Right?