The bottle of champagne popped as I pulled the cork off. This was maybe my 4th bottle for the night.
"Gaga you have to stop." My friend Sonja says trying to take the bottle off of me.
"No no." I protest. "This is my last one. I promise, no more after this." The words slur out of my mouth.
"Gaga that's what you said about the last 2. It's not right to do this. You have to stop. Your past drunk now. Can you even count to ten." She says. My drunken self takes her words to insult.
"I'm just trying to have fun." I slur lighting up a joint and taking a deep breath in.
Before I know it I'm high and have no idea what I'm doing. I no longer have any control over my actions.
"Gaga your not okay right now. I think you need to go home." Sonja tells me. If I was sober enough I would know her words were true.
"I just want to have fun. Stop being suck a bitch. I can look after myself." I yell hitting Sonja across the face. She look at me and I know I have just done something wrong. She walks off into the bathroom and that is the last I saw of her for the night.
I don't think about it much because I'm too busy partying. I'm too high to care.
I ring my boyfriend Taylor up because I need someone to drive me home. It was supposed to be Sonja but I don't know where she is now.
"Hey Tay, I need a favour from you." I slur into the phone.
"Steff this better be important. I'm trying to sleep. I have a busy day tomorrow." He says sternly.
"I'm at a club and I need a lift home. Sonja was supposed to drive me but we had a fight and now I don't know where she is." I stumble over my words.
"Steff this isn't good enough. Where are you I'll come and get you soon." He says angrily.
"Umm. I don't know." I reply.
"Steff can't you see that this is not okay. You need to stop. Your mining your self like coal." He is nearly yelling. "Find out where you are and I will come and find you. But mark my words we will be discussing this tomorrow."
I tap a dark haired boy standing next to me on the shoulder and ask him where we are. He shrugs and turns back to his friends. I decide I will have to go out to the front and read the building.
I can't really read the name because my vision is rather blurry.
"I think it's called Celoia." I say looking up at the bright letters at the front of the building.
"You mean Cielo." He says, "I'll be there in twenty.
I go and sit up against the wall and wait for Taylor to come. Oh I feel so low from living high. Maybe all these people were right. Perhaps it was time for a change.
Taylors car pulled up and I went over and hopped in. I leant over and kissed him on the cheek before putting my seatbelt on. He just frowned.
"I don't know why you couldn't have just gotten a cab." He said as he drove off.
"Oh I didn't think about that." I say. "But then I wouldn't have been able to see you."
He frowns again. Steff if you don't sort yourself out soon I going to have to leave you.
"NO!" I protest. "NO YOU CAN'T LEAVE ME TAYLOR!"
"I'm sorry Steff but if you can't sort yourself out that's just what's going to have to happen." He says as we pull up at a red light.
Lots of feelings start rushing over me. My mind gets clouded and before I know it I hop out of the car.
Taylor drives off and I am left standing at the side of the road without even a jacket to keep me warm. Thinking maybe these people are all right. Maybe I do need to change.
Taylor eventually makes it back around to pick me up. I hop back in the car and he drives me round to my apartment.
I go over to the kitchen and poor myself a glass of whiskey. I've had a rough night and really need it right now. I don't protest when Taylor takes it off me and leads me over to bed.
He kisses my forehead and then goes and gets a tall glass of water and a couple of panadol and places them on my bedside table.
I start to mumble. "Don't leave me I, oh I'd hate myself until I die. My heart would break without you, might not awake without you. I'm sorry that I love you, stay with me bell bottom blue. I'll keep on searching for an answer."
"Steff it honestly breaks my heart that you do this to yourself." Taylor says as he exits the room. I attempt to sleep but I just toss and turn all night. I may have ruined one relationship and jeopardised another all in one night.A/n
Here is the first chapter of this new book. I would love it if you told me what you think.
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Dope / A Lady Gaga fanfic
FanficA Lady Gaga fanfic based on the song/ballad. It follows the story of Lady Gaga's addiction and how it affected those closest to her.