My Poems

Slave

  I hated you, I was betrayed.
Of course I felt hurt, I was willing to get close to you, something I don't do for anyone else.
Anyone else but you. I let you order me around, I didn't make a sound
I closed my eyes as the wishing hour came, prayed that
you would like me the same. But of course,
disappointment rains and I let it,
standing outside and getting cold
so you could have all the space in our home, all the warmth, all the luxury.
Why did I trust you? You hurt me and hunted me, treated me like a rat
It was as if I carried the plague, and you were disgusted.
You told me not to get attached so, yes I tried not to.
But it's hard to stand alone as you tell me that I'm beautiful, but now I realize,
You were saying that so I would bend to your will.
And I did. My sadness became madness, it was you whom I bowed down to you
I went from a stubborn bull to your calf,
Your untamed wolf to your bitch.
I let you enslave me, that is true
I won't say I love you but I don't hate you
What am I to you?