Paper Planes

FINAL

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Anjellee's POV

The sun shines bright in the light blue room as I wake up and turn around to see my lovely husband...

His beauty shines more as the sunlight gently touch his face, I hugged him tight and kiss his lips. Although he didn't respond, he didn't hug me back like what it used to be, I know, he appreciate it all...

Even thou He always ignore me, he always say nonsense things, he always yells at me saying nonsense thoughts. I can't be sad or upset because I know that he didn't mean it all... Maybe just because he's exhausted...

He slowly opened his eyes and gently get out of the bed, didn't even say 'goodmorning my love' like he used to be but It's okay, maybe he just forgot...

I just watch him as he prepares for his work, after that I went on the sala couch to wait for him and he will make a coffee as his breakfast..

He drinks it in one gulp and silently looks at me, his eyes full of sorrow, sadness, depression... But I managed to smile...

He didn't respond on that smile unlike before that he will steal small kisses when I'm smiling at him... He just took his suitecase and walk away

I wish that he will do the things that he does a year ago, the small kisses, the breakfast in bed... Our little bonding in the house...

Or at least he just say to me that 'I'm fine, the work is so fine... Just a little bit annoying because of boss just nags at everyone for the past 9 hours! Haha! I like him seeing very upset it's so priceless!' like before.. but...he didn't even say that kinds of things now...

I really miss those time that he will semd me some paper airplane with messages when he needs to go outside the country.. I remembered when he needs to go in Japan, He left an paper airplane that has a sakura flower... I also remembered that I gave him one.. but I don't know where I went then... Or maybe I forgot??

For him, airplanes are really cool, he also wanted to be a pilot when he was young but his mind suddenly changed and now he is a bit of a successful business man..

He also decorated our apartment with lots of airplane furniture, but there's a one paper airplane that is always in the side of our bed... And that paper airplane is really important to him, because.... I gave it to him...

I think he will go back soon, so I sat in thw couch waiting for him to come home,

The door slowly opens and I'm right, he just entered the house!

"I'm back" he blankly said and walks toward the fridge to take out a leftover chicken that he bought last night and a fresh sushi

He sat next to me in the couch and opened the Television to watch, I smiled at him, because he's taking care of his self.

I went closer to him and puts my head in his shoulder, he's to tired to reject it and it's really warm being with him so I don't want him to reject my hugs. But as soon as he finished eating he suddenly stands and I let go of him...

He washed the plate and chopsticks that he used he silently walks towards his room.

He's really a noisy hyper person before but like what I've said, a year ago, he just changed...

I lay down on the bed and waits for him to go out the bathroom, he went out with his sweater a bit wet, the pajamas have some splash of water and his hair is also wet.

I said to him that he should dry his hair first or else he will be sick, but he ignores me and just lay at the other side of the bed.. It's okay even if you don't dry your hair my love, I'm always here to take care of you if you got sick...

He always sob every night, cries like there's no tommorow... Until his sobs evolved into hiccups.. his shoulder shakes and you can hear his sobs anywhere in our apartment, his pillow is very wet with his tears and his hair...

Before I close my eyes I heard him say "I can't get out of the past! A-Anjellee... Anjellee is gone..."

My tears fell as I heard him say it..

The sun shines bright in the light blue room as I wake up and turn around to see my lovely husband...

His beauty shines more as the sunlight gently touch his face, I hugged him tight and kiss his lips. Although he didn't respond, he didn't hug me back like what it used to be, I know, he appreciate it all...

Even thou He always ignore me, he always say nonsense things, he always yells at me saying nonsense thoughts. I can't be sad or upset because I know that he didn't mean it all... Maybe just because he's exhausted...

He slowly opened his eyes and gently get out of the bed, didn't even say 'goodmorning my love' like he used to be but It's okay, maybe he just forgot...

I just watch him as he prepares for his work, after that I went on the sala couch to wait for him and he will make a coffee as his breakfast..

But he didn't drink coffee like what it used to be...

I follows him as he walk outside the door wearing a very thick sweater to avoid him getting colds in the cloudy and chilly weather...

We entered in a taxi and traveled in...

A Cemetery...

I didn't notice that he brings my paper plane with him...

He walks in a flower shop to buy a blue orchids... A violet rose.. a lavander..

All of them represents sadness... The blue orchids that's saying goodbye, the violet rose of love and regret the lavander for... Death..

I saw my picture, in a small box with a jar... I cried... This is me... I-I'm gone.. but I'm still following him.. because... Just because... I thought it's just a nightmare

"Happy Anniversary Anjellee my one amd only love... I wish you're doing fine there... It's been a year, I want you to be free I want myself to be free.. but I- I can feel your p- presence *sob**sob* i-in the house m-maybe *sob* because of this... I-I need to g-give it back to y-you know... May you rest, in peace..." His tears are streaming down on his face as he looks at the jar with my picture, he placed the paper airplane there... I hugged him tight... I can feel that I will disappear soon, and he just take back the thing that keeps me in his house... My mission is now finished... I need to let him go..
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Dear My Husband,

My parents don't want me to be with you... They want me to go with them in the other country, so that we will not meet each other again I don't want that to happen, they even said that I'll die first before being with you...

So... It's a goodbye now... Not that I will go with my parents...

But to sacrifice myself for my love..

I'll always be with you..

I love you.

Your loving Wife,
Anjellee

*Bang**Splat* the girl that is the owner of the paper airplane killed herself with a gun...

She slowly lets go of the paper airplane while the paper airplane was stained with her blood...

The paper airplane became brown and really smells like blood but still her husband manages to put it in the side of his bed... Always reading it before he sleeps.. and always regret that he made her choose death before her parents...