Long Way Down

Confessions and Heartbreaks

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Harry's P.O.V

I opened the door to my room, Simon talked me into making an special appearance in the show. No one can argue with him thats for sure. I pulled my hoodie and was about to walk in when.

"Why do you insist on sharing a room with someone" I overheard a girl speaking to her friend.

"I don't know, I just don't like sleeping alone" she shrugged her shoulders "Makes me scared"

"Are you gonna cling onto someone forever" she was mean, but then again I don't know her so, there's that.

"No just until I find my soulmate"

"Why don't you sleep alone Harry" Louis asked me before I was about to sleep.

"I don't know I just don't like sleeping alone" I giggled my curls getting in my face "Maybe when I find a girl, you know who won't complain about how clingy I am or doesn't get embarrassed when I shower her with kisses"

And that's what made it all sad, no one gets so lucky "Don't worry"

I nodded.

"I'll sleep with you until you find the one" he held my hand the entire night, like he did all the nights that followed that day.

I remember that day when he fought with Eleanor he was so devastated that he slammed the door on my face, Zayn used to keep me company when Louis didn't. But one day he left the band, and the last thing I would think about was someone keeping me company let alone soulmates. I have learnt to be content with what I have and eventually I learned that no one out there is gonna be there for you other than yourself.

"Hey Renee" I saw another girl -a red head- walking towards them.

"What are you bitches doing out here" the other two shrugged who only pissed off the red head.

"Hey guys I just gotta the room allocation" a brunette haired girl walked towards them.

"And" the black haired girl asked totally pissed off.

"We'll be sharing a room"

"What?!!" all the other four ghasped. 

Louis P.O.V

"Hey little fella" I shuffled my son's hair as he held out his arms to me, I've been asked to look after him for sometime since Briana was pretty devastated about this Instagram thing, I could care less about what my fans do to her.

It sucks that she lets them get to her every time, Briana was a strong girl, I mean I couldn't do half of what she does, the only reason why we are together is because of this little bundle of joy in my hand.

She didn't seem too happy to be around Danielle, she was an amazing girl and I couldn't love her more but we simply didn't click.

"Okay, I'm going to the store do you want anything" Briana asked me.

"No, I'm fine" I looked up to her "Get some diapers for Freddie though"

"Okay" she left the house and I put Louis.Jr in the cradle.

I can't do this anymore I have to talk, someone or anyone, the one that is close to my heart and only one name came to my mind, no that's just gonna stir some drama and hate, maybe I should go for it anyways, I dialed the number but it went to the voicemail, I'm not turning back now.

"Hey El been a while, huh...?" I chuckled to myself.

"I just called to.......I don't know why I called but just hear me out okay......" I took a deep breath.

"I know I messed up and there is no excuse for what I did, I know you hate confrontation but let me be selfish for one last time please...." I paused ".....I'm so sorry Eleanor"

"There is no excuse for what I did, but I just realized that I was an ass to you, you don't deserve this.....I dragged you into this world, and you embraced it....."

"......for me" right then and there I broke down "Holy crap, your life would have been so different if you haven't met me, so much easier"

"But I'm a selfish bloke that wanted you to all to myself and still have my freedom, I mean there's only so much a guy could ask from his girl"

I gulped the lump that formed in my throat "I never regretted anything that happened in my life, but there is this if only - if only I met you before I went to x factor, if only I held onto you a little longer;  if only I haven't made a total joke of myself. I've never regret being in one direction, only going to the x factor"

I curled into a ball on the floor "God the things I'd give up just to hold you in my arms again"

"They say you don't know the value of what you have until you lose it" tears welled up in my eyes and I didn't wanna hid it "I had you Eleanor, now I lost you"

I rubbed my eyes but didn't want to stop them from flowing "Now that you're on the market......you know what I mean......some bloke who could give you all the things I can't give you is gonna sweep you off your feet"

"And I don't like it , in fact, I hate it" I paused again gritted my teeth I can't believe what I'm about to say "But if you like it, if you're happy; then I'm more than willing to let you go"

"You know I had a dream.....a long time ago.....I woke up to the sound of someone crying and you were there right beside me rubbing my arms and telling me to calm down, I turned to look at you.....and........I don't think I've ever seen anything so beautiful in my life"

"You were there: naked with a swollen belly, one hand pulling my head to your chest and the other rubbing your stomach. I think I slept for an extra hour, I didn't wanna wake up. Our daughter walked upto me telling me that she had a nightmare, I pulled her into my arms and then you started to walk away......"

".......I didn't let you though I pulled you closer; I knew it was a dream from the very beginning. Was it too wrong that I didn't want it to end?"

"I swear to god Eleanor- I'd break at least a thousand hearts to show you how much you mean to me"

I stopped crying but again I wasn't in right mind either "I love Freddie, more than anything in the world......but there wasn't a day that passed by where I wished he was ours, hell I'm sure that's what my mom would have wished for"

I broke again "OUR'S ELEANOR, our son. our home. our life?!!" I was yelling at this point but i don't care, I was a emotional wreck "If anyone in the world deserves it, it's you"

"I hope the next guy doesn't make the same mistake I did. God, he doesn't know how much I regret it"

"Be happy El.........if someone breaks your heart again, I'd like to have a long conversation with him, I promise you he'll be limping the next day"

"I miss us El" Freddie woke up and he started to cry , I picked him up and cradled him in my arms.

"It's okay baby" he settled down after a minute "Don't make the same mistakes I made"

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