Long Way Down

Banana

"We should have crossed the ska........ha...hay" it was the fourth day and things have been great so far, the girls were currently singing 'Hymn for the Weekend'

"Helena try to sing with the group"

"Renee, a little louder I can't hear you"

"Mia stop squeaking"

"Chloe don't skip anything"

Harry was a little uptight than we thought, he wasn't planning on going easy on any of us, we weren't allowed to go on coffee breaks, or loo we are not allowed to go anywhere in fact.

"Okay, girls come here" we dropped to floor hence he had to walk over to us "Chloe and Helena I want you to sing for the background for the first three verses and Renee I want you to hit high notes in the chorus, Mia I want you to join Renee on the second line of the chorus, any doubts?"

Renee raised her hand "I have to pee"

"No" Harry shook his head.

"I think it's the time of the month" Renee told without backing down.

"Good for you, Chloe already tried that shit" he pointed at me "Thrice"

"I seriously have to use the pee though" I squeezed my abdomen trying to ease the pain.

"Harry go get a tampon for Renee" Mia told Harry and Harry looked at her with disgust "Napkin?"

"NO?!!" he crossed his arm and leaned towards the right "Absolutely not?!!"

"Seems like you could use one too" Helena snarled.

"You know what, TAKE FIVE" he  shoved the time out symbol to my face and Renee raised her eyebrow.

"Fine god take ten?!!" he walked away cursing to himself.

I rushed to the bathroom and I heard the girls whispering among themselves, I tried to keep it to myself for a few day but I can't, out of the corner of my eye I could see Renee rush to my side. I shove her aside and run into the restroom.

For some reason she decided to stay outside, my feet started to wobble and my steps grew heavier, I stood in front of the basin and finally let the blood shove it's way up my throat, and puked the whole thing in the basin and washed my mouth. 

I lifted my head, there was a figure standing behind me though it was blurry it wasn't hard for me to figure out who it was.

"Harry" I whispered.

"Wh-What are you doing, Chloe?" the horror on his face was evident, I could hear his voice crack.

I wanted to tell everything to him and pour my heart out but no, not so fast. He might figure everything out why I didn't want to be in a band, or want to get along with the girls "No-one knows"

"Chloe you're scaring me" he took a step closer, carefully.

"Don't, you can't say anyone, Harry" I put my hand up and now he took confident strides towards me "God damn it, can't you listen-

"CHLOE, PLEASE TELL ME SO THAT I COULD HELP YOU?!!" he was pulling out his hair by now and I felt pretty bad but no I can't tell him.

"I can't tell you" I could see the horror in his eyes "I CAN'T TELL ANYONE?!!"

I was choking again and he was by my side in seconds he rubbed my back and knelt on the ground along with me.

"I can't tell you, Harry?!!" I looked at him, he nodded understanding the circumstances.

"Can you tell me one thing though?" his blue eyes pierced into mine "Okay, you don't have to tell me anything else tell me just.....just answer this one"

"Okay" I nodded my breathing was normal and my bleeding stopped.

"You're alright, right?" he smiled hoping I would give him the answer he wished for "You're gonna stick around and do amazing things-

I gulped the lump in my throat and couldn't help the whimper that escaped my lips.

"-people need you Chloe, you can't do this to your friends and family, they don't deserve this"

I pulled my hair into a pony.

"You'll be here, right?" he asked and then I broke down. I knew what he meant, he wanted to know whether I'll live or not.

He was waiting for an answer "No" 

The colour drained from his face "You're joking"

I couldn't hold it together anymore, I don't know why he cares for me, but I've never felt this close to anyone before, the tears spilled from my eyes.

"TELL ME YOU'RE JOKING?!!" he pulled my arms and shook me hard.

"Is everything alright here?" a guy popped his head into the room and Harry retreated his arms immediately.

"Yeah" Harry answered back.

He stepped into the room and then I realised who it was, Aaron "Did he do something?"

He asked me, I understood what he meant, I was an emotional mess, my straps came down a bit and there was a little blood on the corner of my lips. He took a few steps closer but Harry stopped him "Stay out of this, mate"

"What did you do?" Aaron shoved him pretty hard and Harry being tall by a few inched was ready to shove him.

"Nothing' happened" Harry retreated his hands so did Aaron, I wiped my mouth, pulled my straps up and I walked past both of them.

I walked outside and I was surprised to see Mia, Renee and Helena leaning on the wall with their heads down. This can't happen, they can't stick around or I can't get too attached, this might break my heart.

"Did you get a tampon in there" Mia asked me.

"What were you doing in there" Helena asked me, my lips curled up into a smile.

"Are you concerned" Mia and Renee looked at her, then Lena realised what she said.

"No" and she's back.

"What do you think I was doing in a washroom anyways?" I rolled my eyes.

"What were you doing in the men's restroom" Renee asked, realisation stuck. I ran into the boy's restroom, this was embarrassing.

"Guys I have to tell you something........." I try to search for the right word when-

"She's transgenic" I turned around to see Harry with his arms around my shoulder. That's one way of covering it up but since I didn't have a better option I went with it. Renee and Lena were pretty shocked but Mia..........

"You don't need a tampon after all, huh?" she smirked 

"So do you have an actual.........." Renee was searching for the right word, looking down "...........banana"