The Best Mistake [GxG]

~ Beyond the Boundaries ~

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"...AND that's how I found out that I'm different from the normal girls." She ended without being bitter throughout her storytelling.

Hindi niya mawari kung paano sila humantong sa ganong usapan. Basta ang alam niya'y komportable siyang nagkukwento kay Ayen ng tungkol sa kanyang buhay. Hindi niya naisip na baka sa pagkukwento niya ng katotohanan ay bigla siyang layuan ng dalaga.

She knew that not everyone could accept her chosen path. Thankfully, her best friends and family embraced her wholeheartedly. Thus, she didn't seek approval from anyone else.

Sa patuloy nilang paglalakad sa bukid, nagiging iba na ang pagtingin niya sa simpleng "tour" para kay Ayen. Iniisip talaga niyang first date nila ang nangyayari.

It was the perfect weather for them to walk leisurely through the verdant fields. The rural breeze was wonderfully refreshing.

Sanay siya sa lugar kung saan aircon ang nakakapagbigay ng lamig sa paligid kaya bago sa pakiramdam ang tunay na preskong hangin. Para ngang ngayon lamang siya nakalabas ng bahay.

Ngayon ay naiintindihan na niya kung bakit mas nais ng kanyang mommy na magpalipas ng oras sa hardin kahit medyo mainit ang panahon. Lumalabas naman siya subalit sa oras na siya'y mainitan na ay naghahanap kaagad siya nang malamig na malamig na matatambayan.

Napansin niya ang pananahimik ni Ayen kaya bigla siyang nakaramdam ng pangamba. May mali kaya sa mga naikwento niya? Ano'ng tumatakbo sa isip ng dalaga? 

"Uhmm... I get that all the time," she laughed nervously. While she was accustomed to this response, seeing it from Ayen at that moment made her feel uncomfortable.

Was Ayen going to dislike her now?

Magsasalita ulit sana siya nang maunahan siya ng dalaga. "Hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit tingin mo sa sarili mo ay hindi normal. Para sakin kasi, kahit na iyong mga taong may disabilities normal pa rin. Maliban na lang kung alien ka."

"A gorgeous alien." She jested again. 

This time Ayen bought it and laughed together with her. 

She continued, "But seriously speaking, what do you think of me now that you've found out about my true gender identity?"

"Ano bang gusto mong isipin ko?"

She shrugged, uncertain of how she wanted Ayen to see her right now.

Sa kabila ng hindi pagpapakita ni Ayen ng pagkagulat habang siya'y nagkukwento tiyak niyang nabigla pa rin ito sa kanyang pag-amin. Pwede namang balewalain na lamang niya ang opinyon nito— kung hindi ito ang babaeng nagugustuhan niya.

Clearly, she had become very attached to the girl, so even the slightest bit of her opinion mattered a lot. 

When it came to disclosing her sexual identity publicly, she found that element unnecessary. Her frequent public sightings with various girls, coupled with flirtatious conduct, made onlookers suspect there was more than a simple friendship.

Her family never denied her the love and support she needed after she came out. That was all that mattered before, but not now. She couldn't dismiss the topic without knowing Ayen's side.

"I mean, since we're friends I guess I have to know your point of view."

"Hindi na importante kung ano ang nasa isip ko." Hinarap siya ni Ayen, kaya naglalakad ito ng patalikod. "Hindi naman tayo friends."

She gaped at her, trying to assimilate her answer only to earn a throaty laugh from the girl.

Muling nagbalik sa paharap na paglalakad si Ayen sabay dugtong ng, "Joke lang. Ang totoo kasi niyan, lahat naman ng tao judgmental. Hindi natin sila masisisi kasi madalas din sa buhay natin nagiging judger tayo."