Do you ever feel alone? Even when you are content and you have the best of friends and boyfriend. I don't know, maybe it is just me. Maybe I am the only person who feels empty inside and pain. Almost as though I am missing something or someone. Yet, I have never been in love (well I don't think I have).
Sometimes, I wonder if that one person, the person who made me smile just by a simple text of "hey" was something more than just a friend. Lately, I have wondered if I did like Derick more than just a crush. Even though these thoughts should not be crossing my mind because I have an amazing boyfriend, they do. I cannot help it. My mind wonders. The way I feel is so complex, my biggest fear is being alone and I feel like I am and might be forever. I see my friends so happily in love, yet I want to feel that way, but something is stopping me. Something much greater than just a simple fix, the worst thing is that I don't know why or how to be rid of it.
This may seem pathetic or not important. But I think it is. I have to know if Derick hates me or if in fact he doesn't and maybe like me. But liking me is such an impossible hope. As unfortunately I am no where near as amazing as many other girls. I have chocolate brown hair, dull blue eyes and petite (along with a height of 5ft3/4.
But the main question is: how do I find this out?
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Will He Ever?
أدب المراهقين"At first it was innocent, he was so mysterious and I wanted to find out why... what was truly there to be told about him. I still remember to this day telling me he knew everything about everyone. Yet, what he didn't know is that I never liked him...
