Babysitting Tom (a Tom Hiddleston story)

And then everything goes wrong

The race was about a week later and Ava got more and more nervous. She kept telling herself that it was stupid, but she just had a bad nagging feeling and it kept growing.

She even called Sasia, who told her to relax, of course the safety would be on spot when they had famous people participating.

Ava told herself that her fear came from the fact that she was afraid of losing him, as she liked him more and more. She found herself getting more nervous every day. What if he grew tired of her ? What if he found someone else ? What if something bad happened to him ?

"You are coming with me right ? So you can watch me win". He said grinning, while he was getting dressed.

She bit her lip. "I don't know Tom. I am still not really happy about this. Promise me that you are going to be careful right ? Don't take stupid chances okay ?"

"I promise to stay safe darling. I just want you to be there with me, then you can remind me if I forget". He said looking at her pleadingly.

She got up. "Okay then, I'll go with you, but only because it means so much to you. I am going to bite my fingers bloody with fear".

The arrived at the track and was presented to the other participants. There was some sports personalities, singers and actors, but not any Ava really knew. Most of them were canadian.

Every participant had a professional driver to guide them over the radio. First they went for a test drive with their mentor. Then the got to drive with the mentor as a passenger, to get tips and ideas.

Ava liked Tom's mentor, his name was Dave and he seemed level-headed. She felt good enough when Tom was with him as a passenger, even though they were driving very fast, but Dave was a professional.

"Fuck that was so crazy amazing darling, you should really try it". Tom was very much excited and his eyes were shining.

It was good seeing him this happy, but she couldn't let go of the bad feeling. "I am happy that you have a good time, but no thanks, it is not for me and please be careful when you get to drive right ?"

"Of course darling". He kissed her before putting his helmet back on, and getting behind the wheels this time.

The other contestants had started out very slowly, but Tom just didn't work with that kind of thing, and he pushed the car from the beginning. Ava watched with her heart in her throat.

Oh she was torn, it was kind of hot that he was this fearless. He went almost as fast as the professionals, but he wasn't a professional, he could make a mistake, and no matter what this could be dangerous and she wanted him home in one piece.

A couple of times the car slided on the corners, but he got it under control easily. Ava still felt like screaming every time.

"I was good right ?" He came running up to her, smiling like a kid on Christmas morning, when he had driven his lap.

She put her arms around him. "Yes, you were sweetie, but relax a bit please. You scared me going that fast".

"He could probably make it pretty well as a pro with some training. He got it in the blood". Dave said grinning, as he came over.

Ava cradled her head. "Don't put ideas in his head. We don't want him to want to make a new career out of this".

Tom just chuckled and kissed her warmly. She snuggled into him. Now there was only the race back, then this would be over, but in the race there would be other cars to consider.

Shortly before they were going to start, the rain began pouring down and Dave started briefing Tom on driving on a slick track.

Ava wanted to tell him to pull out of the race, but he just said that he was british he was used to driving on wet roads, but she was still scared.

When Tom was walking to the car he turned and blew her a kiss, then he yelled. "Ava I fucking love you darling".

Did he just ? Oh yes he did, and in front of everyone. She couldn't help smiling, she hadn't considered saying something like that yet. Was she ready to say it back ? She wasn't sure, but right now it wasn't possible, as he was already gone.

Ava was seated next to Dave during the race, and she could see most of the track, as well as following him on the screen and hearing Dave and Tom talk.

The race started and Tom's car almost jumped out of the curb. Ava was biting her finger nervously and Dave was talking to him. "Relax Tom, no need to go that fast".

"I got it under control". Tom's voice sounded and Ava wanted to yell at him, tell him to listen to Dave.

Uhh she couldn't take it, why did he have to be in such a hurry ? Why was it so damn important for him to win ? He was so impulsive and forgot his head sometimes when he got excited.

Daves voice started to sound tense and he was constantly mumbling to himself. "Slow down Tom, for God's sake. Watch out for the turn".

This is going the end in disaster. She just knew it. Listen to Dave, he knows. She should never had let him do this, but on the other hand she couldn't have stopped him. He is an adult. He makes his own decisions.

"Tom let go of the gas pedal. You are already far ahead, so no need for taking chances". Dave was almost yelling and the edge in his voice made her nervous.

Ava could feel her heart pounding way to fast. Tom didn't answer. She could feel his concentration through the microphone.

"Tom, you are coming up on the last turn in a second. You can't take it at this speed for fucks sake, slow down". The tone of Daves voice send chills down her spine.

Dave threw the head-set on the table, his voice frustrated and a bit scared. "Fuck Tom, for God's sake, this is not ending well".

Ava was really scared now. She wanted to look away, but she couldn't. Tom hit the last turn and Dave was right, the car slided violently. She could hear Tom on the radio. "Oh shit".

"Tom let go of the gas pedal. Let it slide of the track. Do not try to turn, you can not right it, it is to far out". Dave had the head-set in his hand, yelling into it.

It was like the world was in slow motion. Ava saw the car slide and she could see that Tom wasn't listening. Probably his instincts had taken over, because he was turning madly to right the car, smashing into the barrier of tires.

Ava screamed as she saw the car fly into the air. It turned three times in the air, before slamming into he wall around the track, landing back on the wheels.

Oh fuck, no no no.. It was the only thing going through her brain, Dave was already running towards his own car, yelling at Ava. "We will get there fastest in my car".

Ava didn't even think. She just ran to the car and wished Dave would go faster, praying for Tom to be okay.

"Relax Ava. Breathe. He has every safety gear available on and the car is as secure as they come. It looks a lot worse from the outside than it feels on the inside". Dave tried to calm her, but he didn't really sound convincing.

Ava just stared stiffly in front of her. She could hear the emergency vehicles behind them. She felt like she couldn't think and couldn't feel. It was like her inside was frozen.

When they reached the turn they saw the car. It was engulfed in flames and thick smoke. Dave gasped. "Oh fuck".

This can't end well she thought. You have lost him. Ava felt the tears threatening to spill. This was what she had feared, not only about the race, but in general. She had feared the whole time that one day his recklessness would go terribly wrong.

Dave stopped the car and they both jumped out, but already at a fair distance they could feel the immense heat from the flames and then a giant explosion blinded them as the flames reached the gasoline.