Craving for Love

Sadness

I just want us to be back to the way we were.

I just want the sadness to be over. I just want to feel happy again. I just want to be completely happy. 

I am so tired of being depressed, hurt & broken.

Ya, i know my friends makes me happy and smile and laugh but it isn't the same without him.

People say he's not worth it but I dont know. The moment he was gone.. The moment he left me.. ignored me, that's when I realize how much he means to me. It's like without him, a piece of me is missing.

Since the day we stopped talking to each other, I am having a hard time having an eye contact with me. I wanna look at him but I just can't.

Everytime I pass by his classroom I don't know whether to look at him or not. I'm just scared I might cry hard, just how much I cried the day he told me his girlfriend wants us to stop talking to each other.

When I look at him, I can only see our memories together, the flashbacks, good or bad, sad or happy.

But I just wish when he told me he loves me, he really meant it.

I hope someday he'll realize i was always here for him. I hope he'll realize how much I love him and how much I miss him.

And I want him to be happy, I know he's happy with his girl now but someday I want me to be the reason behind his smile. I want to be the reason of his happiness.

I love you best buddy. I love you so damn much. & my feelings for you will never change.