Joah

Chapter 1

It's been hard for me ever since me and Connor broke up. I still can't wrap my head around why I did. I guess I couldn't take the distance anymore. And I feel bad for making Taylor deal with my sadness. "Jude you have to move on there's plenty of other guys who want to date you" she always says. But how could I ever find anyone as perfect as Connor. I even start to question my own sexuality. "That's it Jude after school your coming to church with me" Taylor says as I tell her how much I miss Connor. "Taylor I have to ask my moms". "Fine tell me what they say after school". She says and walks away. I groan I really don't want to go but I feel bad for Taylor because I haven't been a good friend so I walk to Momma's office and ask. "Of course Jude you can go". After school I tell Taylor and she smiles and we walk to church. As we get there it's not what I expect. It's a room full of kids talking and playing games. "It's my youth group" Taylor informs. A good looking guy comes up and greets Taylor with a hug. Taylor has a boyfriend? And just like she's reading my mind she answers "This is Noah, the pastors son". Noah, the name fits him. He's tall and muscular and has dark brown hair and dark colored eyes. We gather around and talk about our feelings when Noah talks about how's he's going through a breakup. Then all of a sudden he says the right guy is out there somewhere. Noah is gay? I shoot a look at Taylor and she smiles. She planned this of course. Next we have to do an test of trust and Taylor makes me work with Noah. We sit criss cross with our knees touching and right when we do I jump at the touch. We then have to hold hands. I wipe my sweaty hands before holding his and he laughs. Now we have to stare at each other. I look into his eyes and it feels like he can see right through me. Like I've know him forever. I feel emotionally naked. I start to panic and I feel he senses it when he hands clench mine. I get up and say I can't do this grab my bag and rush out the door. Taylor comes to follow me but Noah stops her and he comes after me. He sits next to me on the road. "It's okay I felt it too, there's no need to shame who you are. I'm sorry Taylor told me". "Of course she did that's way she wanted me to come". "You want my number at least"? I look at him confused he wants me to have his number. I give him my phone and he smiles and heads back inside. Did Noah just flirt with me? Taylor comes out asking if I was okay. I tell her yes. And we head home.