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"really?" i smiled.

he nodded his head and walked over to me, with his arms open. "how about a hug?"

"um...about that." i scratched my neck. "i just think i need some time to be alone and think. i'll be back for dinner."

i walked outside to my backyard and wandered into my garden. i sat down on a bench and sighed. he wanted to leave me for another girl. he flew all the way out here to see her, but he's staying now.

why was brandon so complicated? i'm sick and tired of waiting for him to ask me out. i don't think i can wait any longer. there are other people out there who like me and who will ask me out and care for me. brandon does care for me. what if- ugh! everything is so confusing. i'm still young and i don't need to focus on relationships and boys.

"hey." brandon said, sitting next to me. he came out of no where. "are you okay?"

"yeah." i sighed.

"you sure? you seem pretty upset. i thought you'd be happy that i was staying." he admitted.

"i am." i said. "i just- never mind, it's not important."

"no, no, no, tell me what it is." he urged. "anything you have to say is important to me." he held my hand. "i care about you."

"that's great and all," i took my hand back. "but i can't do this anymore, brandon."

"what do you mean?" he looked disappointed and shocked. "did i do something wrong?"

"yes!" i yelled. "i mean, it wasn't just you. it was my fault too."

"you're scaring me. what's going on, babe?" he questioned.

"you ask a lot of questions." i forced a laugh. "i don't know how to say it..."

"just go right ahead." he smiled.

"um...i just don't know what we are. are we dating? are we friends? what do we have going on?" it was my turn to bombard him with questions.

"it's not important." he shrugged it off.

i rolled my eyes. "it is important, b. you're playing my feelings and i don't want to continue liking you, if you're not going to make a move. i can find someone who will treat me be-,"

he kissed me.

he kissed me then and there and it was the best thing in the world.

i'm so lonely.