A String of Sweet Messages

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~ His Story

"So when I was little, I saw my mom doing drugs. When I say I was little I mean like five years old... So I would sit there with her sometimes and I would stare blankly at the static on the television. She wouldn't even notice me but when she did notice is when she would get upset. She got upset at me and at herself. She would yell, send me to my room, and then I would walk out to see her," Lucifer cleared his throat, trying not to cry, "I would see her cutting her arms.

"She would scratch at the open wounds sometimes, but I was so young. I didn't know that I was supposed to have more than a filthy mattress and a dirty blanket, and smudged walls, and cockroaches everywhere, and brown water and the list goes on. I didn't know I should've had a good mother until our landlord came in one day asking for rent. I know now that even though he didn't take care of the building properly that he was a good man, because he dropped me off at the hospital with a note in my hand that said 'Free Kid, His mom is on drugs, he aint got no family. Give him to kind people.' and funny thing is they let me keep the note. And they got me into a good home.

"It's just that in that good home, I had to learn new things. I had to go to school. I had to learn to talk; they thought I was mute at first but the doctors assured them that I was just scared. And I was scared, I didn't know these people; I had never been out in the world. I was alone. But then in school I met Elizabeth and by then I learned the ways of the kiddy world. I knew about kiddy relationships, friendships, the cool scale, and more. I made Elizabeth a valentine card and then she asked me to be her boyfriend. Of course I had said yes and then she gave me my first ever kiss on the cheek. 

"But in my teen years, I started to feel empty again, life was good though. My 'family' saw me not eating and took me to the doctor, I was diagnosed with depression. They made me eat and take pills. To be truthful the pills were scary , they gave me nightmares and hallucinations because my mom had sometimes used pills. I even swear I saw cockroaches coming out of my arms and that's where I got these scars," Lucifer pulled up his sleeves, showing his scarred arms.

"I cut, thinking I was ridding of the cockroaches. I was so terrible. I was crumbling into an infinite amount of broken pieces, but Liz kept me up; she kept me sane. Plus to be honest, I was kind of a player because and Liz was kind of a part of my games and she let me get into her pants, and you know a guy has needs. And I still don't know if I ever really loved her or if I just used her to fill the void and to pleasure my lower part. But thing is, I thought I was in love because she filled my emptiness with something but .... emptiness is like the dark.

"In order to have light, you need dark but one day that light will fade. It's like how happiness fades for us, how the sun will die, and how my emptiness came back. And then one day I was wondering in the park, I was thinking about suicide, about jumping off of one the overpasses onto the freeway, but I saw this girl sitting there writing or whatever in this notebook. It was a gloomy cloudy day and raindrops were starting to come down so I went and 'saved her notebook' as she put it. And that girl was Eve, and when I saw her face, I could see that she was the most beautiful, gorgeous, exquisite, perfect girl in the world. You can call it love at first sight if you want.

"Thing is, I was with Elizabeth and I had to end it with her. It's selfish but she didn't fill my emptiness and I couldn't fake hapiness any longer. And in a short amount of time, I got to know her through her book and she got to know me through my sketches. Did you know Liz got me into sketching because she saw that it made me happy? No, I left that out. Anyways, I got to know Eve, the real her.

"And then she saw me with Elizabeth, whom I was bringing to the park to meet Eve, because she wanted to see the girl I was leaving her for. I was freaking out because I couldn't find Eve and then Elizabeth kissed me, she claimed it was to calm me down but then I saw a crowd forming around a building.

"I left Liz standing there and I rushed to the scene. Yes, I'm nosy. And by time the ambulance came, I saw who it was and I had pushed my way through the crowd and I was on my knees next to her, crying and clutching her hand. I hadn't cried since the hallucinations, since before my sketching. When the ambulance came with the stretcher, I told them that I was her boyfriend and the only person that she had so they let me ride to the hospital. They asked for information that I didn't know and all I could tell them was that her name was Eve and I was Lucifer.

"They found our names a little weird but they didn't second question it. They knew she needed to get to the hospital fast. I waited in the waiting room and then after I think either 3 days or a week, I finally got to see her and I just held her hand she woke up and all she did was question me about Elizabeth. I thought she would've had a concussion and I could just make her fall in love with me again if she was even in love with me in the beginning. 

"And here I am, because I'm a screwed up person and because of her. I love Eve. And this place," Lucifer gestured to every wall and all around him,"is the Tree of Life and I'm a sneaky son of a bitch serpent."