If only.

~If Only.

(*OK, so um- kind of inspired by true events (from my life right now) ha-ha so yeah.)

        I knew (thought?) I was dreaming, a dream where he was there. Not just any guy but, the one I’m waiting for. I’ve been having this same dream, for 4 months.

In the dream; he comes into my room- and talks to me, I can never hear his voice though. It makes him sad. He leaves. I cry, call, and beg for him to come back. He never does. I wake up sobbing, like a piece of me- is absent.

I get high. Just to see him, even if I’m only hallucinating- it’s just enough- to get me by. I can hear him. He’s high- right along with me- laughing. When we’re like this- I ask him, “Are you real?” He laughs, and says “In every way imaginable.” I feel alive. More than anything.