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What are these thoughts???

*Media Image is Caylas Father, Jake Marshall*

Pia POV

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Okay so I've been looking for the key for two days and still haven't found it. I decided to tell Cayla to come over and help me look for it because I really do need her help at this point.

I'm having a lot of trouble figuring it out on my own, i guess that's what i get for never letting Erin in.

I honestly feel so bad about it now because i have a feeling in my gut that it's partly my fault that she's dead. I could care less about me right now because mom is even worse off than me.

She hasn't eaten in a week and she won't say more than two words at a time. I don't know why it's all of a sudden when Erin died two years ago. Maybe she has been avoiding it till now because i only heard her say it a few weeks ago for the first time ever.

Kole texts me every hour and i haven't said anything back, I'm just super busy trying to figure all of this out with Cayla.

       I think I love him, but I honestly don't have time to "be in love" with anyone. I can't be distracted by anyone, or anything! I have to be ready for anything that is about to happen. Especially with mom.

(ding ding ding) The bell sounded and I jumped out of my thoughts to answer it. As i made my way over to the door, i heard it go off again. I yelled in response to the bell, or person behind the door, "Hold it! I'm coming!". I finally got to the door and opened it to see a red faced Cayla who was obviously out of breath. "Hurry, let me in... QUICK!" she finished her sentence with a scream.

Of course i let her in and asked her what was going on, she just started balling her eyes out and cried into my shoulder.

By the time she stopped there was mascara down my shirt and a lot down her whole face, she apologized for breaking down like that in front of me.

Honestly, it didn't bother me, i thought she was real. She IS real.

I loved the way her emotions were so forward when she was with me, I wonder if that's her wearing her heart on her sleeve and she is always like this? What if it was just with me? What would that mean?

Wait, what am I saying?!?!?!

I just had a moment, it's okay. "Pia!!" and I finally zoned back in. " Y-yea sorry what happened anyway? You know when you came in?

"I, umm, well, my dad he tried to, hurt me. I ran because that's what I'm good at considering these past few years."

"Oh, baby, I'm so so sorry." I said and wrapped her in a hug.

"Pia?"

"Yes?"

"I uh, thanks" Cayla said and tried to pull me even closer to her in the hug, which was almost impossible.

"Um, your welcome. Cayla?"

"yeah"

"Well you didn't happen to hear what I said, did you?

"When you called me baby, yeah i did. I liked it" she stuttered and continued to speak a second later, "O my I'm sorry that probably sounded creepy. You have a boyfriend. Let's go look for that key?"

I turned around and wiped a single tear off my face and plastered on a huge smile, "Oh yea, lets go do t-that." and at that second we rose from the ground where we had been sitting for the past hour and went to look for the key upstairs.