Lightweight

Chapter 4

Alexis' pov

I walk in the halls of my new school, here's a lot bigger than my older school, I'm here only because my mom wants me to study in the best school from our city.

It's been 2 weeks since I started living with my mom and my half sister, yes she won my custody from my dad, but I still see him when he has time for me.

Mom and I have a great relationship, she's caring and sweet but also very busy, Izzy too, she's always out with her friends and mom sometimes takes me to the studio or sometimes she just works from home.

I was recognized as the mistake of Demi Lovato's affair in the media, a lot of her fans say that they hate me because I destroyed Demi's marriage, of course i've never told anyone about it, but mom frequently tells me if I'm getting hate to tell her, I don't because they're actually right about everything.

"Look where you're going bitch" I hear someone say as I fall on the ground, I looked around to see a group of girls around me laughing. "Hey do you wanna help?" I nodded and one of the girls gives me a hand, when I'm about to stand up she pushes me to the ground again and they all start laughing and go away.

I stand up by my own and walk towards my class, I'm used to this, no matter where I go, they'll be aways there, because I am the problem.

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I step in the car and mom says to me go to the front sit since Izzy went to a friend's, like always.

"How was your first day" she asks me smiling softly.

"It was cool mom" I say.

The way to home was quiet, I didn't say anything and mom also didn't.

As we arrive home I go out of the car and run to my room. I throw my bag on the ground and go to the bathroom locking the door.

I look for my blade and find it in the same place, I run the blade on my wrist immediately feeling relaxed with the pain.

You'll never be enough

Fat, ugly

I start crying, why me? i wish I wasn't so ugly and fat, I just want to be enough.

"Mom I'm home" I hear a scream from downstairs and some laughs, it's Izzy and her friends.

Friends. My big sister is everything I wanted to be, she has everything I dream to have, she is perfect, I wish I was her.

I hear them talking and laughing from downstairs and soon my mother's voice yells for me.

I get up and clean all the mess, hide my razors and push down the sleeves of my long sleeved shirt.

I go downstairs finding Izzy and her friends having fun and my mom in the kitchen.

"Hey baby girl, dinner time" mom says and I nod.

I hate dinner time, I don't get to not eat or skip with any excuse, my mom is always over me and Izzy about it, she's afraid of me or Izzy going into her old habits.

We sat down on the table and she prayed before we eat, Izzy's friends was so nice to me and mom had them like her own.

"The food is amazing auntie Dem" Bea says and mom smiles proudly.

"She bought it Bee, her food is awful" Izzy says making we all laugh.

"You are not supposed to say that, I'm your mother, I didn't raise you like that young lady" Mom says playful.

"You certainly raised menthe right way mom, that's why I don't lie" Izzy winks at mom and we all started laughing.

The dinner was funny, I got to eat half of my food so thankfully mom would let me go by saying I was not hungry.

Once I came in my bedroom I went to the bathroom and purged, throwing up all the food, I didn't feel any good but I needed to be thinner, I needed to be perfect.

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