Lightweight

Chapter 6

Alexis' pov

I am so fucked up, why do I have to be like this? I hate myself more than anything, I wish I was dead.

My mom is working like always, Izzy went out with her friends and should be back soon, I don't really care anymore, I'm used to stay at home by myself.

One of the most incredible things in this house is the studio room, at first I didn't really like it but now I live for it, it's my favorite place here. I love singing, but my voice isn't really good, eh whatever.

When I was younger my life was a lot better than now, I didn't have any problems, I loved my school, they didn't bully me and I had so much fun, but now they hate me, I have no friends anymore.

My mom is always busy and my dad too, Izzy is never home which is something really bad, I have everything to have a perfect life, my mother is Demi Lovato and I'm a rich kid, I can have everything I want in a blink of an eye.

But it isn't worth.

I want more

Something that money can't buy.

I want my mother's time and love, I want to stay with her, also my dad, but they're always busy with their works.

They don't like you just like everyone else.

Stupid. Kill yourself.

And there they are, the voices in my head, they never leave me alone, they're not the worst thing but the fact that they're right about everything.

It makes me think that I have no reason to be here, I'm worthless, no one loves me, what am I doing here? Just being a burden to everyone.

"Alexis?" I heard a soft voice coming from downstairs, I recognized as my mom's voice.

"In my room!" I yelled.

I wiped my tears with the back of my hands and waited for my mother.

I see her entering the room and I act like I'm doing something cool.

"Oh hi mom, you came earlier" I fake a smile.

"Yeah, my manager is in a good mood since everything is going amazing with the tour" She says and I nod.

"You didn't tell me about touring" I say while I write down the paper.

"Baby, I just told y'all yesterday at dinner" She says.

"Oh, I'm sorry I didn't hear" I say and she nods.

"Are you okay?" Mom asks worried.

"Yeah" I say keeping my attention to my phone even though it's locked.

"You look tired, maybe you should get some rest?" She enters my room and walks toward my bed.

"I think so" I fake a smile and she smiles softly at me.

"Okay then I will let you sleep" She says as she kisses my forehead and walks out my room.

I sigh, maybe that's all I need, some rest, if I sleep now mom won't mind about me skipping dinner since she'll assume that I had a full day.

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I open my eyes to see the darkness around me, wow how long did I sleep?

3:20 am

I'm hungry, maybe I should wake my mom? No she's tired, I don't want to bother her.

What about Izzy? Oh yeah she's at Bea's, she's always there since they started dating.

I guess I must go by myself.

I stand up and go out of my room, my eyes are used to the dark so I don't have a problem with tuning the lights on.

I walk towards the kitchen and look for something to eat in the refrigerator, when I turn around I see a big spider on the table.

"Oh.My.God" I whisper to myself biting my down lip.

I walk cautiously to the other side of the kitchen but then they start coming out from everywhere.

I start panicking, I can't scream I will wake my mom up...

"AHHH" I yell when I see the spiders on me.

I start crying desperately trying to take them off of me but it's not working.

"Baby why are you screaming??" I hear my mom's voice.

"Take them off of me mommy please" I yell crying and she comes closer to me and the spiders start climbing onto her body. "MOM THEY'RE ALSO ON YOU" I scream.

"Baby what are you talking about?" She says calmly looking at me.

"The spiders!" I say.

"Honey there are no spiders in here" she says and hugs me.

"They are all over us! Can't you see them??? MOM OH MY GOD NO" I climb on her and cry even more.

"Baby! Alexis! look at me!" She yells and I look around to see that we're on the couch and there's nothing on me anymore.

I look at my mom who's looking at me worried and hug her tightly.

"Mommy, I'm afraid" I say sobbing and she puts me on her lap.

"It's okay, you're okay baby girl, I've got you, mommy got you" she says and kisses my forehead.