The Bad Boy's Grievance

🎵05:Mommy's little liar

The people infront of me are talking and talking like Jamilla don't exist.Thats me.Well,mama and papa here are just talking,and Andrew here opposite my chair is silently eating without a care to anything around.Mama and papa are talking about their business and that annoys him I think.

"Jam,Andrew.Why aren't you guyz talking to each other?You talk to her honey."-Suddenly,mama broke their conversation and insisted.He sniff and I could read that he rolled his eyes mentally.

I didn't want this to be awkward so I refused."Uhm.I-I am finished mama.I need to-"

My phone buzzing in the pocket of my jeans suddenly cut all off.I took it out my pocket,swipe my finger across the screen as I presume they were looking at me curiously.A smile formed on my face,seeing the screen lighted with my mom's picture on the dial.

"Oh my god!Mom's calling.E-excuse me."-I pardoned my self.Walking through the sheet of floor mat,out of the dining towards the door,I smiled as I saw the garden is silent.I walk up to there and swipe the screen to respond.

"Mom! "-I squealed.I am so excited to hear their voice.It's been a weeks since they left without a call,but we message eachother however.I was smiling and can't be faded,as it makes me happy now that I'm hearing my mom and dad's voices.I missed them a lot.

"Hey baby.So,what's going on?"-She asked.

I cannot say that in some case,I can't be good to him at all.That I like him and he don't like me back,and that,somehow,won't compliment me that much,but being so prevaricated then truth is into hiding.

"Uhm,I'm okay.Andrew and I had a good times together and still.How bout you though?"

"We're okay.Dad's in a meeting and me myself had to rest for a while and in an hours I'll have to go to a program honey.I miss you jam.Tell me if you're okay."-I can tell from the other line,she's within dreary.

I release a loud sigh."Mom,are you crying?..Look,I'm okay,I love you and I'm not lieng and Mama and papa are like my third parents.You don't have to worry about anything.Im fine."

She chuckled."I know that sweetheart.How about Andrew? Are you close to him now? I mean,like having good times together."

That,unfortunately,don't seem to be a good questions."uhm,yeah ofcourse,Andrew and I are hanging out every time.He-he uhm,a good volleyball player.. I think."

I sighed,what a shame.We don't even talk,or hang out even.But we had our first making out and ALMOST had sex.If anyone of you asking if it was my first kiss.. Well,it wasn't.I had my first kiss when I was 11 years old with Patrick back in the foster home.And many kisses with boys in a bar.

"Well,that's great.Honey I have to go now,I need my beauty sleep"-She chortled.

"Okay,you can't get it anyways."-I chuckled,mocking her.She has insomnia,so that she have to take a pill to get a long sleep.She chuckled before telling I love you and hang up the phone.Indeed so,I lied to her.

I sighed,keeping my gaze at the grass. I stood there for a moment before a voice interupted me.I flinched.

"Hanging out huh?"

I look over my shoulder and gasp,looking into an amused eyes.I turn around slowly,wearing grim smile."Hi."

He smirked in amusement.He is crossing an arms against his chest,smirking so preposterously.

"You're lucky your mom is not here kitten."-He stated,still plastering a smirk on his face.He walk closer to me.His lips are curved into smirk still,and his look to me isn't good.

His fingers landed under my chin.I don't know why,but I didn't move.I tilted my head to see no other people but us.

"Are we close Jamilla? Why do you have to lie to your mom?"

He didn't had a second thought throwing my face harshly aside.I wanted to say the words and lines I wanted to say to him,right against his face.That I claim myself as his,and I love him so much.But I knew,I will never get the aim of having him.You know that feeling? When you just see his face and you're lewd desire came crashing and just wanted to feel him inside you.Fuck! I'm so disgusting.

"Are you just going to stare at me for a whole time little kitten?"-He stated,having that sneer on his face."Listen.Your quite pretty.But I don't like you as a girlfriend sort of.But if you want,you could be my sex buddy."-He chuckled at his own words.The way he wear his smirk from his face,it was easy making out he's gross imagine he got.He licked his lips,staring at my puzzled face.I breathed out,forcing my teeth to not bite into my lip.Cuz I know what will happen."Kidding.I don't like your figure shape.By the way,you're a mommy's little liar."-He chortled with that.

He didn't let me talk back as he spun around and left me stunned and flattered.Yet tho...I found a guts to call his name so he face me again with now a mocking smile."H-how long have you been behind me?"

"Since you've stated my name kitten."-He stated.I swallowed a lump in my throat,receiving a smirk from his amused face.Great,so he've been behind within the minutes of our talking about him being beloved.I strike back to the point he said something lecherous."S-sex buddy?"-I stammered,holding back longing of persuading pulling him close.Not that I agree being what lewd thinking he has right in the moment.He stared at me,intently and his smirk was varied to a serious curve.

I did not want to stare at him for long because I can't bear his serious gaze."Hey Jam I was just kidding,I respect woman.Jesus,you just take that quip seriously.Don't be such a forlorn for it.It was just a joke anyways,I respect mom's young lady."-He said,emphasizing the last words he stated,coming out like a mock around.I parted my lips,with crimped above my head staring at him as I tried to hobble my tears in my eyes.

"I-I didn't.. I'm not-I"-I cannot find a words to say,nor a cue to compose a range.I didn't had the strength to fight back tears,they run down my cheek unstoppably.I'm sniffing infront of him,and it's quite embarrassing.

I don't want to lift up head and look at for embarrassed of my adolescent trait.I chortled between sobs,shooking my head in acceptance.Tho yet,I had to get into the point that it's something I can't deal with within.

I was between letting drop the tears when he clasp my chin with his pointer and middle finger gently,lifting up my head to face him,and stared back.He made a goosebumps to me for just a stare,and it one of the most loved about him by me.His staring ability.Cuz it just melt you,I guess,instantly.

"Tell me"-He pause for a seconds "Why do you always tear up infront of me? Why do you act like a weakened woman to me?"-He questioned.For a moment there I was surprised having that questions that shocked me to the point that I don't have response.I was just looking into his eyes unconsciously without any presence of matter.All I want and thinking right now as I stare back at him is to kiss him.

"Answer"-He mumbled between his breathe,giving a chill run down my spine.Still clutching on my chin,he stared so cold at me denoting his avidness of hearing reply.

For just in case he got irritated and impatient,I took away my chin from his grasp and look away from his gape."Because you're hurting me"-I speak out.I was surprised being boldly speaking my mind that make him stare at me again."Do you think I'll cry without any reason?What do you think of me now? Weak? Childish? Coward? Desperate? I just want you to show you like me too.Just an indication."

He didn't gave me a fine answer,instead I received a smirk from him.What's up with him and his frequent smirk?He shook his head annoyingly making him look hotter as he sneer up at the same time.

That sneer then varied into a grin."Kitten,that comes out from your mouth.I don't think of you as anything.Don't be such a baby."-He stated bluntly,curved up a grin on his face showing how fascinating his look do.

He turned around.Walk away from me and left me gawking behind for I was a fool standing and hearing his grievous words thrown to me.It wasn't easy listening to his speaking as it happen harshly,and his words might somewhat right in the first place.