Penny for My Depressed Thoughts?

I'm Nothing

Darkness is all I can see
No light, even when I go to the beach
I'm floating, yet drowning
Even in my sleep, I'm frowning
I cross my fingers everyday,
Wishing for a brighter day
Unfortunately, it doesn't work,
It's too dark to see through this murk
I spend some days crying
Hoping that one day I will be flying
High in the sky is where I'll be
If I continue to not being able to see
Like a bat, my room is my cave
I can't seem to get through this faze.
I wish for a cure
To make me sure
That death isn't the answer
And that I can become an advancer
In life is what I seek
But it's difficult for me to reach this peak
With no motivation, I'm nothing
But wish to be something
So, I can love myself
Instead of just everyone else.