Penny for My Depressed Thoughts?

I Deserve It

This is something i wrote last year in may. I don't know why I saved it. I wrote this to someone I really cared about, but depression got in my way as always. So, I cut him off. Like I said I don't know why I saved this...

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Believe it or not, the only way I could get over this is to avoid you. So, if you really wish for us to not be apart then okay. I understand. Since it happened to some of your family. You think it would happen to you. I give up. Im sorry you have to read this. I have no one else to put it on. I give up. I'm tired. Im tired of trying to make other people happy. Im giving up on trying to make myself happy. It's okay that we can't be together. Im used to it. Im fat, ugly, bitch, trifiling, drama starter, stupid, crossed eyed, gap teeth little girl that has depression. Who knew all along my parents and family was right. I just give up. Once again i'm numb back to the beginning. Where I was meant to be. I guess. God, I hate myself so damn much. This is why I wanted to die. So if you actually 'care', just don't contact me any more. Let me suffer because I deserve it. I deserve eveything that's coming my way.