I Love You To Bits

AN: I had this really weird and really cool conversation with someone on Twitter and suddenly we thought: what if the boys were planning to do their coming out during the NTA's this year? ;) So I tried to write it down ;)

Ant was a nervous wreck. He'd never been so nervous to go to an award show. The NTA's after the phone-in scandal had been pretty nerve wracking, but that had been nothing in comparison to what he felt now.

"Are you okay, love?" Dec asked carefully. He was really nervous himself; Ant could hear it. Ant wrapped his arms around Dec for a comforting hug, something they could both use very well. "Everything will be fine, I promise." Dec whispered.

Ant didn't know whether that was true, although they had spoken it through more than one time; even more than ten times: they would come out tonight, if they would win the NTA for best presenter for the 16th time in a row. They would come out of the closet. The thought alone made Ant shiver in fear.

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The show ran to its end. It was time for the last award: the NTA for best entertainment presenter. For the first time in his life, Ant didn't know if he really wanted to win an award. He knew this was the best place to come out of the closet, he knew this was the best chance they would get, but he was scared. He was terrified.

Dec took his hand and gave it a reassuring squeeze before stroking his knuckles with his thumb. Ant felt himself relax thanks to the knowable touch.

"And the award for best entertainment presenter goes to..." Ant closed his eyes. He felt Dec tensing up next to him. "For the 16th year in a row! Ant and Dec!" Ant felt like his heart fall. Did he really want to do this. "You can do this!" Lisa said as she hugged Ant. "Thank you." he whispered as he hugged her even a bit tighter. "For everything." Lisa pecked him on his cheek and let him go.

Dec took his hand again and hand in hand they ran on the stage with the enthusiastic applause of the entire audience. "Wow." Ant said in the microphone. He didn't know whether he would be able to say much more, but he really wanted to try. "Thank you so much." Dec smiled in the microphone. He wrapped his arm around Ant's middle which gave him the strength he needed.

Dec first of all thanked everyone they thanked every year, then it was Ant's turn. "And to end this, we would send a special thanks to our lovely wives, but not in the way we thank them every year." He said. He took a deep breath. An entire confused O2-Arena was staring at them. "25 years ago my life turned completely upside down thanks to one man, but our environment told us to stay silent." Ant continued. "Two years later we were pop stars, teenage idols. Maybe you should find yourself a girlfriend. That was what they told us." "So we did. We found ourselves girlfriends." Dec said when he heard Ant was tearing up. "But after more than 25 years, it's too much." He said and he let a short pause before he continued. "So... Thank you Lisa, thank you Ali, for being the best cover ups someone could wish for." Dec said. He turned his entire body in Ant's direction. "Dec and I love each other, we have been in love with each other since we were 16 years old." Ant said without looking away from Dec. "And finally, we can be ourselves now."

They did it! They came out! And Ant felt like the world was finally lifted from his shoulders, after keeping this secret for 25 years. Dec flashed Ant his most beautiful smile. Ant kissed him shortly on the lips which erupted an enthusiastic cheer from the audience. "I love you." Ant whispered and he hugged his lover. "I love you to bits."

In that very moment, Ant knew everything would be fine. No matter what would happen after tonight; Dec was at his side, and he would be there forever.