SOLITUDE

Diary entry

DEAR,DIARY

I don't know what to feel anymore? do i have to pretend to be ok? or can i scream out in pain? thats just the thing though nobody understand how i operate and function

 when i meet myself in the darkness it takes a lot of strength not to give up, and then  I remember the light.

The darkness pulls me and i lose my chance to breathe,suddenly  i start chocking on the endless supply of dark matter around me . My sorrow feels everlasting. I feel like i have been trapped in the darkness for ever, but i know thats not the case . A minute without my light  feels like eternity to me. Even if i were to try to be strong I know its something that can never be accomplished. Without the light I'm left to succumb to the darkness.

I want to be my hero but I'm to depend on the light. Without it I'm hopeless,lifeless,just an empty shell. The shadow needs  the light to survive. I try to mask my pain, i try to be strong but i can't . I scream in agony. what is the point of  living if at the end of the day I'm lost? without the light I'm not even living just surviving?

I suddenly wake up my eyes hurt from contact to the sun. I'm laying on the ground naked my feelings bare. My tears glisten on my eyes, i pull my hood on and lift my socks higher. Im cold freezing even. 

“Get off the floor” someone screams to me and i willingly obey i get up and dust the dust of my clothes and head to school.

I don't know what to feel anymore? do i have to pretend to be ok? or can i scream out in pain? thats just the thing though nobody understand how i operate and function

 when i meet myself in the darkness it takes a lot of strength not to give up, and then  I remember the light.

The darkness pulls me and i lose my chance to breathe,suddenly  i start chocking on the endless supply of dark matter around me . My sorrow feels everlasting. I feel like i have been trapped in the darkness for ever, but i know thats not the case . A minute without my light  feels like eternity to me. Even if i were to try to be strong I know its something that can never be accomplished. Without the light I'm left to succumb to the darkness.

I want to be my hero but I'm to depend on the light. Without it I'm hopeless,lifeless,just an empty shell. The shadow needs  the light to survive. I try to mask my pain, i try to be strong but i can't . I scream in agony. what is the point of  living if at the end of the day I'm lost? without the light I'm not even living just surviving?

I suddenly wake up my eyes hurt from contact to the sun. I'm laying on the ground naked my feelings bare. My tears glisten on my eyes, i pull my hood on and lift my socks higher. Im cold freezing even. 

“Get off the floor” someone screams to me and i willingly obey i get up and dust the dust of my clothes and head to school.

LOVE,BREN