February 14: You and I

Author's Note:

This is a February 14 special short story. I published it already but due to complications I deleted but now I'm bringing it back. I hope you'll read it and drop some comments. Thank you. Enjoy reading!!

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February 14…

Yan ang araw na hindi ko talaga pinaniniwalaan. I don’t know why everyone is so excited about that. Well, mixed emotions daw sabi nila… others are excited kasi magiging masaya sila for sure, yung iba naman malungkot kasi daw malamig ang February nila, meaning wala daw silang ka-date. Meron din naming petiks petiks lang. Kunwari walang plano yun pala planado na ang lahat while yung others pa dyan ay totally walang paki. Who cares nga di ba?!

Ikaw saan ka sa kanila?? Ako? Dun ako sa last option. As in, I got no idea why I should celebrate that “day”. First thing first, hindi po ako bitter… wala nga akong paki sa mga ‘yan eh. Wala kasi akong sense of “love”?  Hay ewan ang gulo!

Pero yun ang akala ko… yun din ang alam ng iba. Pero iyon nga ba ang totoo? What if… all of this is just a life? What if kung dinededma ko lang talaga? What if yung sinasabi kong wala ay meron talaga? What if lahat ng ‘what ifs’ ko ngayon ay talagang totoo?

The answer is yes… bakit yes? Ewan! Joke!

Pero noon pa man wala talaga akong interest about “het February 14 is coming soon” o kaya naman “February 14 na, Happy Valentine’s Day!” Wala talaga eh. Pero sa kanya pala meron…

Siya… oo! Siya… pero sino nga ba siya?

Three months ago… nangyari ang mga pangyayari na di na sana dapat nangyari pa… yun ay ng malaman niya na…

Mahal ko siya…

I never love someone not until I am now to him.

I never say those words not until I told him myself.

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Kaya nga lang… like I always know and expected… wala na eh. Huli na ang lahat. It’s not a fairy tales… there’s no such thing as happy endings kasi wala naming endings. Masakit pero tinanggap ko.

Pero kulang pa ba yung…

“Hello?” I started talking and hear his breathe on the other line “You still there? Please listen.”

“Yes, I’m listening.” He answered briefly.

I took a big sigh and continued “First, I’m sorry…”

“What are you talking about?” he interrupted.

“Can you let me finish?” I complained and caused him to keep quiet. “Why? Why?” I’m so confused why he didn’t tell me before.  “But that’s not important anymore…”

It took several minutes for me to tell the main purpose of my call in the middle of the night.

“Listen… please just listen…”I gave another blow and said… “I’ve been… loving you…”

The wind blew upon my skin that caused me to shiver. Shivering that night waiting for him to answer. But all I heard was… nothing.

Wala akong ma-react sa ginawa ko… am I being so fast? Mabilis ba yun? Ang gulo?! I told myself that  I will accept any answers whether favor sa gusto kong marinig or dun sa mas pinaniniwalaan kong sagot na… “too late.”