HEY BITCHES IM BACK AND HATERS STAY WACK WITH THEY PHONY ASS! But i still love them lol. I am currently single and not looking for anyone at the moment. Im getting to know who Cynthia Santana is and have learned that I dont need a partner. I can be by myself and still sleep good at night. My ex-boyfriend as you may know was Ray Stacks opened my eyes.
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My relationship with Ray wasn't bad, it was just I didn't love him. After my break up with Erica, I just didn't want to be alone. Im the type of person that always needed somebody and that's why I jumped relationship to relationship. Ray and I's breakup was mutal and we ended on good terms. I am now focusing on myself and my work. No lie its been rough and the fact he let me live in his house still after everything.
Right now im at NU headquaters, which is going good, and on my lunch break. Food never lost my love 😋 Stella is here to go through my files that i let pile up on me. Its crazy how busy i be and got prince in daddy dog care.
Stella: What you thinking about?
Cyn: Nothing *sigh* just thinking like usual * shrugging my shoulders*
Stella: if you say so *looking down at her phone* Look at king he has gotten so big *smiling*
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Stella showed me the picture that Erica posted of King and instantly smile. I miss that little boy so much. That was my partner in crime and loved how he said 'i love you'. We used to always play video games together and mess with Erica. Like we see each other, but its not as much as i want. Raul has me babysit when he has to work and E is out of town. I still remember his big head self ate my chipotle, which i dont eat much anymore, BUT i couldn't stay mad with him. He was too cute and still is. Its crazy she cant post him as much cause people are so cruel. As I look back and think, my relationship with Erica had some really good times, but things just got messy between us on both ends. I miss her, but I don't know what would happen if we went back down that road again. Its crazy how i still cry for her at times, and love her. I called when Shad basically went out and took an L for calling his fiancee at the time an attention whore for speaking out on her miscarriage. She always wanted kids and this man just put her down. I was more than willing to beat his ass and i get that he was pissed for her airing it out, but he didnt have to be extra. I was so happy when she left him. Thats when she went off the grid again and i was worried. Still is and wish she would return my phone calls. She posted little feet not too long ago and trust and believe i have my speculations too, but I always dream about us working it out, getting married, and popping out a few kids. I realized that it was all a dream that was one part of my life that I would never get back. Partly my fault, but its still in my past.
