am i not good enough to be happy?
am i not good enough to have something good happen to me?
what's wrong with me?
why am i not like the others.
why do i have to get the shit end of the shovel.
i don't understand why nothing ever good happens to me.
i just wish i didn't have to be here if i can't be happy.
maybe if i just found a way to end it all.
end all the suffering.
and maybe others around me will be happy too.
when will my goodbye come?
when will the suffering end?
today.
