hi again

Why Did You Quit???¿¿?

alrighty lets do this
so the main thing thats probably gone around is that MangoKiwi quit wattpad/instagram/youtube/etc because i was stressed and i was being bullied by the people watching my content. That's half true!!

was i stressed??? absolutely!!! i have anxiety, which is a problem i didn't really know had a name until after i quit. anxiety made everythig stressful-- worrying if people would like my content or hate it. having so many people following and watching me that everyone would see and talk about it if i messed up and did something stupid. being afraid to talk to other people but also afraid of seeming stuck up for not talking to people. afraid someone would try to find me irl. this also led to some depressive episodes that id rather not go into detail about bc it got kinda bad but all you need to know is that since then i have overcome it!!

was i bullied?? not really from what i recall? bullying isnt the right word, although i see many people saying it. its more like everyone was demanding too much of me. i felt so pressured by keeping up with producing all this content and by all my real life responsibilities that i finally realized that i didn't know what i was doing it for anymore. I started off writing fanfiction, animating and drawing on the internet because it made me proud and happy to have other people enjoy my work, but it went from a stress relieving hobby to a stress-inducing job. and i never was making any money off of my creations, not even my youtube videos were ever monotized. i was only 12 or 13 if i remember correctly. it simply wasnt worth it for me anymore, and its partly my fault for thinking i could handle it.

where are you now??
im chillin!!!!!! im very happy and relaxed at this point in my life. i have many wonderful friends and an amazing gf. im doing much better in school without all the stress. anxiety and depression still exist but not to the scale that the MangoKiwi Era ™ put it in. i still play Love Live and im a diamond rank in overwatch. i also LOVE steven universe and star vs the forces of evil. theyre beautiful shows and inspirations for what i want to do one day.

Do you still create?
yeah boi!! drawing and animation are still a big part of my life. writing too-- i was working on a book for a while, a real book with original characters, not a fanfiction, but then i decided it would work better as an rpg. it's a work in progress, but i hope to create and finish my own original story rpg!

Do you still like Minecraft/MCYT?
I still play minecraft occasionally because i still think its a really cool game. I'm not in the minecraft youtuber fandom though. all the guys i wrote this fanfic about seem to have lost their spark for me. like when a game is really cool but you dont like to be in the fandom bc it can be kinda ehh, like fnaf or undertale for example???

Where can i find your more recent works since you've quit MangoKiwi?
if youd like to follow me anywhere i really would like to ask that you PLEASE do NOT mention The MangoKiwi Era ™. That is all behind me and my new accounts for sharing my work are completely different. I do not want to be associated with it any longer. Please do not call me "Mangokiwi-senpai!" or anything of this manner, and please do not ask me questions about anything related to MangoKiwi. seriously. if you call me MangoKiwi on any of my newer social media accounts i may have to ask you to unfollow. I really really really dont appreciate it im sorry if this sounds silly but it just really makes me uncomfortable thank you for understanding. if you have questions regarding the situation leave them here and not on the accounts.
i post art on instagram @/nozcmi and my youtube is nozomeme tojo. i also run an ask blog for love live! characters on tumblr @/ask-school-idols with some friends if you like llsif. again if youre going to follow please take this seriously and please listen to the stuff i bolded and itslicised and also underlined for important because its important ™

So this is like the last thing youll ever write under the name MangoKiwi?
yeah mangokiwi dies with this book i guess