I Won't Give In

The Lost Souls

Denis's POV

I want to tell Alex the truth of what happened, I want her to know that it was my fault. But I'm loving all this time with her, she's not in love with Ben, and she actually wants to be around me. I'm just so scared that I'll lose her if I tell her, but one day it's going to have to come out and I'm going to have to face the consequences.

I'm sitting on the couch with the guys, Alex and Brandi decided to go shopping again, have a girls day or whatever. Hanna couldn't go because she's not feeling well.

"So, why aren't or didn't you help Ben out with getting Alex back as soon as she was out of the hospital?" James brings up.

"Yeah because after what you did, you kind of owe him to get his girlfriend back," Sam comments.

"And we're not saying that we're on Ben's side or whatever, but Alex needs to know what happened and don't you see that Ben is lost without her?" Cam says.

Jeez, since when have they gotten so deep.

"I know, trust me I know. I'm being selfish, and I should've helped Ben get her back, but I am so in love with her, you guys don't know how much I care for her," I explain.

"Yes, but we've got to think about Alex here, she deserves the truth, and Ben can't take back what he did to you, he can't take back sleeping with so many girls, but when or if Alex finds out the truth, she'll be the one to decide who she wants in her life," Hanna pipes in.

"I know need to tell her but I just can't,"

"Can't or won't?" Hanna asks.

"Maybe a bit of both, ugh I don't know but I'll tell her soon," I mumble.

"Denis, the longer you wait to tell her the more it's going to hurt," Hanna says softly.

Those words stuck into my head all day. I just don't know when or how to even begin telling her.

But I will tell her soon.

Alex's POV

Brandi and I get back to find the guys running around the house, they're such children. Denis comes up to me and kisses my lips, I smile in the kiss as I pull back.

"Why are you guys running around like a bunch of kids?" Brandi laughs.

"Cameron took my beer!" Sam exclaims.

"So then why are the rest of you guys running around?" I giggle.

"Well Sam knocked my beer out of my hands when he was running around so I began chasing after him, and I guess the rest of them wanted to join in on the fun," James says hitting Sam in the head playfully.

I just roll my eyes at them whilst grinning.

"So, my mom wants me home tonight because she hasn't seen me in forever," Hanna says.

"Yeah, same with me," Sam agrees.

The rest of them agreed too.

"Okay well, you're welcome here any time,"

They all left leaving the house to myself for the first time since I got out of the hospital. I sit down on the couch and snuggle with a blanket to watch Supernatural when I heard a loud knock on the door. Who's would be at the door this late at night? It's 12:34am. I guess this early in the morining if you want to be technical.

I open the door to see a very drunk Ben.

"Ben?" I look at him confused.

"Baby I-I'm sooooooooooooo sorryyyy," Ben slurs.

"You're wasted, come inside,"

I drag Ben to the couch and make him sit while I got him a glass of water. I come back and sit next to him, I hand him the glass but he pushes it away.

"I don't want waaaater, I just want you." He manages to get out.

I sigh and take his hand and make him hold the water.

"You have to drink this," I say sternly.

"I have to get you back!" Ben suddenly is acting more awake.

"No, you have to drink the water," I impatiently tell him once again.

He takes the cup and downs the water, making a mess. I groan and grab a towel to clean up his mess. Ben climbs over the couch to me, he lays his head on my lap. He grabs the towel holding like his life depends on it.

"I-I'm so sorry baby.." Ben mumbles into the towel. "Those girls.. I don't want them, I didn't feel anything with them,"

I don't know what to do, so I just tell him it's fine. He immeditaly sits up and tries to make eye contact with me, I grab his chin gently and make him face me.

"N-n-no it isn't fine," He suddenly begins to sob.

He grabs my shirt as he pulls me closer to him, he burries his face in my chest. I pull his face away and look him in the eyes.

"Listen Ben, it's okay you don't have to worry about anything," I tell him, sincerely.

"B-but I ruined you life I made you cry!" I rushed the words out.

"It's okay Ben, I forgive you," I softly say.

He just pulls me into a hug as he play with my hair.

"You're amazing babe you're the greatest, forgiving a fuck up like me.." He sobs out.

"You're not a fuck up Ben, you made a few bad choices, doesn't make you a fuck up," I coo.

"I, I would die for you," He sniffles.

He eventually stops crying, I feel so bad for him. I never realized how upset he was, how sorry he is, I just realized that he got drunk all those times to forget about me. I stand him up and walk him to my room. I lay him in bed and I kiss his forehead, I turn around to leave the room but Ben takes my hand in his.

"Please, don't leave me forever.." He mumbles half asleep.

"I won't leave you, you'll always be my friend," I whisper.

"But I don't want to be friends,"

I knew what he was talking about.

"Please lay with me," He begs.

I think about if that's a good idea to, I mean he's already half asleep, he's not going to try anything with me. I lay down next to him, I allow him to pull me close. I hope this isn't betraying Denis, I mean I'm helping out a friend.. Right?

"I miss you so much" Ben mumbles. "I love you," he trailed off into sleep