It Ain't Easy

Prologue

"Malaysia" Sean spoke to me calmly. He was always so calm with me. I could always just chill with him. We could just sit in a room, passing a blunt, and not say a word and it would be the best chill session ever. I loved that about him. I knew right now though, he wasn't loving me back.

I'm so fucking stupid. I can't believe I got myself into this mess. And it's all my fault. I can't believe I'm sitting in front of the 3 men I love so dearly, with my head down and tears falling out my eyes onto my lap. I didn't mean for it to get like this. I have to choose. I can't. It's too hard. I can't just pick one and leave the other two.

"MALAYSIA!" Reese yelled at me, slamming his fist on the table. I knew he was fed up. Reese always had a temper. He was so funny though. He always made me laugh, like no other. Even when I cried he made me laugh. He never got mad at me or yelled at me, until now.

"What!?" I yelled back, but not as loud as him. I was so close to completely breaking down and sobbing. I shouldn't be though. I'm in the wrong and crying. I'm hurting them and I'm the one crying. What is wrong with me?

"Malaysia, I know you hear us talking to you. Now, lift you head and answer the damn question." Quincy spoke to me. He sounded like he was going crazy but was trying to keep calm. He was the sweet one. He always knew how to make me smile. Even if my mouth was stuck in a frown forever he knew how to turn it upside down.

I lifted my head up slowly, while the tears continued to rush. Why is this so hard? Why did I have to be so stupid? Why did it come down to this? I wish I would just wake up from this horrible nightmare. I knew this was real though.

"So, Malaysia,....whose it gonna be?" Sean said all calm and shit. I knew all of them were going mad in the head. Especially Reese.

I can't believe what's happening. I have to choose. But its so hard. I opened my mouth to speak. I choked on my words. After a bit, I began to speak

"I..umm..I..I"

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I hope you guys like this book. It's not going to be perfect but nothing is perfect so. I'm not sure now how I want this book to go. Oh well though. I'll figure it out. Happy Reading. And don't forget to

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